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i'm feeling so blue today...huhu...

lonely~ need a warm hug T___T

i feel unwanted. unneeded. neglected. and all the negatives..

aaaahhh~ not healthy~~ not healthy~~~

pengen ketemu pacar..pengen ditelpon...pengen denger suaranya huhuhu~

mellow abis deh gw hihihi~

aaahh~ udah hari baru nih~ harusnya menatap hari yang baru harus dengan pikiran yang lebih positif...

tadi malem abis ber-mellow2 soal si pacar...

tapi abis sholat tadi, tiba2 pikiran kembali menjadi positif banget,

hehe~ ^^

hesti bilang gw selalu punya theme song disegala suasana LOL~

hmmm tapi mungkin bener juga yah ^^

kayak tadi malem, pas mellow2nya...masa yah tiba2 aja winamp play  lagu

"sometimes love just ain't enough"~~~ iiiih pas banget ama suasana hati~

itu salah satu lagu yang mau banget gw teriakin depan muka si pacar LOL~ (dengan lembut yah hahaha boong banget)

pas banget banget banget ama yg lagi gw rasain sekarang...

jadi pengen ngasi liriknya deh ^^,

wait a moment..

Patti Smith - Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

No, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No

(kyaknya udah pernah gw post deh ni lagu ;p)

huhu makin mellow T______T

sama satu lagi lagu yang anehnya kemarin ini paling sering replay di mp4 gw...kan dishuffle tuh~

Ne-Yo Mad

She's starin' at me
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Mmmmmm
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
Ohhh
And now is i'm yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me
All that that means
is neither of us is listening
[and what's even worse]
that we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
But we wont let it go for nothin'
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
when your constantly accusing.
[askin' questions like you've already known]
We're fighting this war, baby
when both of us are losing.
[This ain't the way that love is supposed to go].

Whoahhhh.....
[what happened to workin' it out]
We've fall into this place
where you ain't backin' down and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now...

It's all for..

Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
but we won't let it go for
nothin'...
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
[perfect, perfect, ohh ohh]
and just how good it's gonna be
we can fuss and we can fightlong as everythings allright between us...
before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

yah ngertilah ya apa maksud dari yang gw color bold'in~ hihi~

hhhh~

so much for being in love...

sometimes it's hurt, sometimes it's heaven on earth...

but somewhat, i'll still be grateful for what i had..

for i have my very best friend and soulmate in my life..

through the better and worse, i'll still love him, no matter what ^^

bener kata si abang mail, mungkin ini cuma ujian aja~ HARUS KUAT!! ^^,

masa pacaran mau senengnya aja haha~

mudah2an setelah ini ada hikmahnya~ those sacred words will finally reach my ear maybe? hhihi~ i so very hope so...at least it'll worth of my 8 years and 8 months hihi~

minta doanya juga ya semuanya ^^,

so, maybe ini cuma salah satu kekurangan dia yang harus gw tolerir...forgotful and ignorance..

haha~ kayak saya nggak aja...saya juga kan banyak kekurangannya hihi

makanya, saya akan berusaha to live with it...^^,

imperfect makes perfect sometimes ^.~

aaahh~

semoga dia gak apa2 disana...dan semoga hidupnya senang2 aja, ga banyak susahnya~ 

i always pray for you aa~

maaf dipostan bawah aku minta terlalu banyak padahal udah bilang gak mau menuntut.

sekarang mah terserah aa aja~ mau gimananya ^^

.....

hhhhh~

makin kangen T____T

udah deh semakin mellow saja saya hahahaha~

belom tidur nih...mau tidur dulu sebentar trus siang jalan kerja deh hihihi~

sumpah santai banget kerja gw hahaha....

menurut lo????? 8DDDD

btw2 mau ngepost chat jibang gw sama bebi kemaren malem, soal rumornya changmin 8D

chika_takeuchi_go: LOL~
chika_takeuchi_go: beb beb
chika_takeuchi_go: iya ni i baca
hp_gnc: baca apaan???
chika_takeuchi_go: tnyt si jaemin masuk kmr mandi cewe gr2 pintunya gak bs dikunci ya yg wc cowoknya
hp_gnc: gw lg nunggu loadingan hehehe..
hp_gnc: nah itu yg gw bc td siang...
hp_gnc: ktnya si jj yg dorong tu cewe...
hp_gnc: yah gw ga ngarti mana yg bnr...
chika_takeuchi_go: iyahhh~
hp_gnc: jd asal mrk ga pp is okay lah...
hp_gnc: tp yg bikin gw ketawa...
chika_takeuchi_go: trus krn si antis takut ama jeje jadinya min yg dikenain,,,minnya nangis ya katanya pas didalem
hp_gnc: iyah itu yg bikin gw ketawa...
hp_gnc: si antis takut ma jj!!! whuahahaha...
chika_takeuchi_go: HAHAHAHAHA~
chika_takeuchi_go: iyaakkk~
chika_takeuchi_go: mungkin galak bgt kali ya pas nguasir
hp_gnc: padahal klo sangar mah bisa ketebak yah yg sangar si cm... tp pas gw baca tu brita si antis takut ma jj.. brarti si jj galak bgt yah??? hahahaha....
chika_takeuchi_go: iyah kayaknya HAHAHA
hp_gnc: masih ga masuk ke bayangan gw jj sangar!!!
chika_takeuchi_go: mungkin mrk sempet ngapain min kali di wc, trus jejenya marah...kan dia protektif ama temennya
chika_takeuchi_go: >.> sok kenal bgt
chika_takeuchi_go: gw si kebayang bgt XDDD
hp_gnc: iyah kali yak... digrepe2 =))
chika_takeuchi_go: =))
chika_takeuchi_go: mawu dooong grepe miiinnn
chika_takeuchi_go: hihihihihihihihihihihi
hp_gnc: samaaaaaaaaa
chika_takeuchi_go: ato mungkin yg real tuh JAEMIN...
chika_takeuchi_go: trus jejenya lg horny trus diganggu ama tu 2 cewe
hp_gnc: whuoooooo.... 
chika_takeuchi_go: HAHAHAHAHA
chika_takeuchi_go: makanya marah bgt
chika_takeuchi_go: =))=))=))
hp_gnc: weitzzz klo real jaemin seneng dah hahaha...
hp_gnc: sempet gitu lg horny dikjr2 fans???
hp_gnc: msk wc cewe pula???
chika_takeuchi_go: JANGAAAANNN it SHOULD no scratch that, it MUST be yunjae~~!!!
chika_takeuchi_go: hahaha
chika_takeuchi_go: mungkin slingkuh dr yuno
chika_takeuchi_go: XDDDDDDDD
chika_takeuchi_go: makanya cm itu kesempatan yg ada
chika_takeuchi_go: XD
hp_gnc: =))
hp_gnc: brarti si jj pervet bgt yak...
chika_takeuchi_go: bangettt~~
chika_takeuchi_go: mawuuu dipervert ama jejeee~ o__O
chika_takeuchi_go: eh eh beb
chika_takeuchi_go: i jd inget~
chika_takeuchi_go: jeje slalu blg kan, dia suka cewe yg jarinya bagus?
chika_takeuchi_go: jangan2 dia BOTTOM~
chika_takeuchi_go: makanya suka JARI
chika_takeuchi_go: HAHAHAHAHAHHA
chika_takeuchi_go: pervert banget guaaaaa najeeezzzz
hp_gnc: =))=))=))
hp_gnc: Asumsi lo yah GILA!!!
chika_takeuchi_go: hahahahaha~

LOL~ jibang abisssss~~~~!!!

kapan yah ngomongin jeje gak h***y? XDDDD~ superpervert! 8DDD

but at least it made me smile, talking to you bebiii~

sankyu~ i love you!

yasuda~

bener2 harus tidur~

LOL!

bantuin doa semoga pacarku pada akhirnya membaca blog ini dan menelponku ya temans ^.~

Let's pray hard. yeah.

so, enough for today. imma gonna fly fly high~

chaaaaawww! muaaahh!!