am i a good friend for my best friends or not?
hmmm~ the answer would be, NOPE!
at least that's what i thought i am.
why? there's so many reasons for that, like,
i never initiated to call them often, they usually call me at first. i felt like sometimes i act like i don't care, don't listen to them, or simply looks like i don't want to meet them.
well, the truth is...
i am so much love my bestfriends, BUT, i dont know why, i just cant express my feeling rightly.
hmm..yep that's true, i never call them often or be the one to call first only to just talking shits lol~
hhh~ i just not good in verbally you know, i much like to send them messages, which is not really often also - my bad!
or the not-listen thingy...i DO listen to them, it's just that i sometimes put my attention to somewhere else while listening.
hhh~ it's just my defense i know..but really, i Too get annoyed with myself like that.
oh, maybe, just maybe, it all started when i've lost my very first bestfriend in middle school, she just happened to have another 'bestfriend' lol~ poor me..i was sulked days and nights for that. i even cried lol~
and it happened again when i was in highschool, same story same impact. but this time, i made a mistake that cause us really separated. by knowing i've lost her, i ignored her. huhuhu~ i'm still not good on expressing what i feel even now how hurt i was that time. i just love her so much.
so from that time, i told myself to not give so much for friendships, coz you'll never know when they'll leave you.
actually, maybe i failed with that lol~
coz i'm so into my bestfriends right now lol~
but the not-paying-too-much-attention thingy still up -_-
my bestfriends are my treasures. i don't know why, but i always wholeheartedly love them. guess i really not take the lessons lol~
aaahhh~
so now, i just want to tell them that i love them so much! eventhough i looked like i dont, but believe me friends, i DO! even my new friends out there, which also 'close' to me.
yeah~!
that's it!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!
i'm so sorry for being good-for-nothing's friend.
hope you'll always take care of me, as i would.
i thank GOD for giving me a chance to know you all!
I LOVE YOU!!
xDDDD~
so yellow mellow here xDD
ahh~ just wanna post pics of me and one of my bestfriend lol~
Shinta aka MonDa *monster dada* lol~
she just love me so much xDD
i love her a bunch!
such a smart, creative and pretty girl (hoeekkk~!) *i hope she wont read this lol~*
me and her, always throwing some stupid-random nicknames like whore, bitch or something like that, currently we love to call each other 'cun/pecun' lol~
she really love to tease me, even to phone me in the middle of the night! YOU!
such a tough girl indeed.
Written by; ♥chika chan ^.~♥
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