missfabulousfelicity

happiness is here! ^o~

2010-02-04T11:27:00.003+07:00

yes yes yes, soooo true!
happiness is finally here, at least for me & hubbie ^__^
so proud to say that...

i am pregnant!

aaaawww~ thank you Allah SWT for this miracle~

aw dunno what else to say, i'm just too overwhelmed. *tears*

enways, i took a picture of the 1st test pack on 2nd Feb 2010

taadaaa!!!

as you can see, there's TWO lines on it! it means, now i'm expecting! aaawww~
can't wait to finally see our 'baby C' ^3^

so happy! :D

devil speaks!

2010-01-29T15:54:00.002+07:00

i don't like when someone bugged out on me with no reason,
oh there is! that someone was pissed off of something!
(when in the normal situation, i will sincerely help out)

worse, IN FRONT OF OTHER PEOPLE!

the after impact is, those people start to STARING at me and think that i made some UGLY mistakes.
and it seems like the words spread faster than MY BREATH!

and yes, I HATE IT!

RIP!

2010-01-28T15:39:00.003+07:00

oh.i'm.so.dead.now!

effin' dead!

just got caught in the act, wetwetwet, by TBI's director while farmville-ing. ToT
eventho that was my break time and there's my padang rice on the desk. but still~
goodbye world~!

wanna go home. T0T.

alive! :D

2010-01-22T18:42:00.002+07:00

heyyoooo!!! it's me again, finally, posting something. =3

it's been a year yaa? since it's 2010 now LOL. *tergaring abad 21*

i'm just going to tell you guys something, proudly, that now hehe

i'm MARRIED! ;D

*mukacongkak*

it's been 48days sih yaa, but still masih wangiii kata org mah hahahaaayyy~

well, i'm not pregnant yet (though i am really eager to get one .hehe.) but that's okay lah, it can wait, mungkin emg belum waktunya aja kali ya hehe..(meskipun suka pengen nangis klo baca postingan bumil ato foto2 bumil and/or babie LOL~)

hmm yeah anyway, just want to point out one thing kalo...

Nikah itu enak yaa XDDD

well, kita lebih ga ngerasa sendirian aja 24/7. hmmm i'm so glad that i choose the right man to be my hubbie. meskipun emosian, tapi banyak bgt kelebihannya dia yang bikin gw bahagia. alhamdulillah.

he's an amazing hubbie. i'm happy. *mataberbinar*

ohwell, i'll stop my randomness and PULANG! (ohyeah, gw masih dikantor jam seginiii =_=;;)
sebentar lagi hubbie pasti nyampe buat jemput. aww aww.

right. am off now, bye! :P

2009-11-06T12:45:00.001+07:00

hmmm.

is crazy!

2009-10-30T02:25:00.001+07:00

sedang mencoba mengontrol emosi,

semakin dekat waktunya semakin besar pula cobaan2nya.

mudah2an kuat ya Allah~ amiinn..

another crazy thing is :

lamaran dimajuin jadi hari Minggu, 1 November!!

and guess what, gw dan pacar masi belum punya kostum!!!

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGHHHH~~!!!

(jumat ini kami berdua rencana mau shopping pulang kantor, dan HARUS DAPET!)

mengerikan banget kalo kalian tau persiapan kami baru seberapa, padahal udah tinggal 1 bulan lagi!! let me tell you, kalo :

1. Undangan belum dicetak (meskipun nyetaknya ditemen deket sipacar dan katanya bisa selesai 1 minggu) and it's DUE TO 8 NOVEMBER!!! coz mau disebar pas mama arisan keluarga!!

2. Souvenir (pengajian + resepsi) belum pesen.

3. Kebaya gw baru mau fitting pertama sabtu ini!

4. Seserahan 60%nya belum lengkap. (meskipun yg ini belum tau karna ada beberapa item dibeliin mama mertua katanya :D)

5. Felice belum ngabarin soal resize cincinnya uda selesai ato belum.

6. Belum foto Prewed Indoor & Outdoor (lagi) + retouch!

7. Gagal perawatan buat muka sipacar karna obatnya belum dateng2 T_T pdhl 2 minggu sebelum hari H uda ga boleh pake obat2an.

8. Check-up Pranikah beluummmm~~

9. Buku Pengajian beluuummmmm jugaaa~

10. Belum Fitting Beskap Pengantin dan ortu~

11. MAHAR belum juga dapett~

12. Alat Kamar baru mau DP u___U;;

13. lupa, E-Invitation juga belm bikiinn (pdhl rencana mau dipublish 1 bln sblm hari H!)

...dan kalo mau diurutin, masi buanyaaakkkk yang belum XDDD

kalo kata Eninta, WO kami, gw berdua adalah calon penganten paliiiing santai LOL~

saking santainya kalang kabutnya baru sekarang hahaaha~

fiuuhhh~

Bismillah aja deh, semoga semuanya lancar dan ga ada kendala yang berarti.

amiinnn~

better off if i dont want to be late tomorrow~

ciaaaooowwww~

officially becoming a Bridezilla!!! x____x

2009-10-16T11:44:00.008+07:00

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pengen nangisss~
baru dapet kabar tadi pagi kalo ternyata untuk tanggal nikahan gw, kami gak dapet penghulu di jam yang kita mau~ katanya sih schedule pak penghulu yang bernama Pak Sulaeman sangatlah padat. alhasil, kebagiannya jam 11 siang huhuhu~
belum bilang sama mamapapa, entahlah apa mereka ikutan freakout kyak gw tadi ato ngga.

hadooohhh, untung undangan belom dicetakkk, coba seandainya udah T___T

tuh bener kan banyak banget perubahan yang terjadi..
tuh akadnya jadi jam 11 siang~ (tau deh tuh keburu apa nggak ke gedung langsung *mukangambek ) udah gitu ya...ada lagi yang bikin panikniknikkk

kan rencana awalnya kita mau naro acara pinangan/lamaran dideket2 hari H ya...
jadi kira2 schedulenya :
jumat siang : pengajian CPW, dilanjutin jumat malem : pinangan/lamaran, trus sabtu pagi jam 9 : akad nikah, jam 2 berangkat ke gedung untuk resepsi jam 7-nya.. emang keliatan padet bgt dan capek bgt, tapi buat efisiensi waktu dan biaya semuanya dilakuin diwaktu yang berdekatan :D

naaahhh, itu rencana awal yaaaa, 2 bulan mendekati acara, kan ortu pada ketemuan lagi tuh...akhirnya tercetuslah kalo acara lamaran/pinangan ditiadakan, karena dirasa kurang begitu wajib..yo weis, gw nya sih ga terlalu mempermasalahkan, karna artinya kalo ga ada lamaran adalah = istirahat yang lebih panjang menyambut hari besar besoknya :)

taaaaaapppiiii, tadi pagi CPPkuh ngasih kabar yang lumayan bikin syok dan kebat kebit jantung.. ternyata pakDenya doi, pakde Idris, yang memang dituakan, mengharuskan adanya Lamaran, katanya ga boleh ga ada, dan disitu tuh ada ritualnya gt..hmmm~ yang lebih syokkiingg, rencana lamaran itu bukan deketan sama hari H, tapi 1 bulan sebelumnya, yaitu 8 November ini *pingsan*..nah looo kaaannn T^T sama sekali ga ada persiapan~ gw juga kan ga jadi bikin kebaya lamaran kemarennn huhuhuh~ masa ga pake kebayaaa T^T

jadi sabtu ini mau diadain rapat dadakan ngomongin hal ini...

oh satu lagi, pakDe idris bilang, nanti acara Palang Pintu (hihiiyy, yoi! kami pake adat betawi ^___^) jangan ditaro di sebelum akad, tapi ditaronya pas mau masuk gedung resepsi supaya lebih rame acaranya katanya...nah looo lagi kaaannn~

banyaaakkkk bgt perubahannn~ mesti buru2 dibuat rundown acara nih huhuhu~
banyak juga yah kerjaan :P

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another distraction!
&^(%&^$%&^%*)
ada GEMPA!!! yaampuunnn takuuuttt, pusing bangetttt~!!!
jadi pada lari2 keluar gituh satu kantor huhuhu~
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okayy, back to bussiness~

...oh iyaaa, tapi ada hal yang melegakan sih... kemaren uda ngambil bahan kebaya doong buat semuanyaa, tinggal dibagi2in ke pemiliknya masing2 buat diubah jadi baju cantik :D
hahahaha~ sumpah deh, tinggal 50 hari lagi, tapi baju2 baru pada mau jahit hahaha, bener2 penganten nekadddd~!!! -dan pemalas tentunya :P

aaahhh aku naksir kebaya kakak2 dan adikkuuuuu, sama kain songketnyaaa jugaaaa~ pengeeeennnnn~!!! :(

hmmm...ntah uda berapa jam gw nulis ini LOL~ terlalu banyak distraksi sih soalnya..

ya suds lahh, diriku mau melanjutkan browsing sanasini duluw~

will update sooner, with bunch of pictures yo! ;D

oh bytheway,

Have a great weekend fellas~!!!
^____^

list seserahan :D

2009-10-16T00:25:00.007+07:00

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akhirnya, diriku mau mempost list seserahan yang 90%nya BELUM kebeli XDD

(yepp~ mengutip kata jeung enin,sang ibu WO, kami adalah calon pengantin yang SANGAT santai XP)

sebenernya dari kemarenan gw masih bingung untuk bikin list..karna sebenernya gak mau ngeberatin dengan minta macem2, tapi maunya gw banyak hahaha~ sering banget gw buka2 dan baca2 blog tentang wedding dan ngintip list seserahan mereka...yang alamaakkk~ banyaaakk bgt dan hmmm branded smuaa~ *hiks..pengen* jadinya bingung dehhh x__x

pengennya seserahan gw tuh yang sederhana ajah...karna seperti yang uda pernah gw bilang, sebenernya seserahan itu kan ga terlalu wajib bgt ya~ cuma sebagian dari adat istiadat ajah.. jadi ya, kalo dipikir2 sayang juga yah (dan kasian CPP akuh) kalo buat seserahan aja ngeluarin bajet ber-J2 hehe...lagian pasangan pas2an seperti kami, mana sangguuuppp~ *hiks =P*

tapi akhirnya tadi gw menemukan list seserahan yang sesuai banget sama maksud gw hehe...sederhana, ga banyak2 tapi uda mencakup semuanya ^___^ udah gitu gw ngintipnya diblog seseorang yang namanya sama ama gw hahaha~ buat mbak riska aku nyontek yaahh list seserahannyaaa~ *kedipkedipganjen*

listnya akuh :

1. Perlengkapan ibadah (dibeliin calon mama mertua :D)
> Mukena
> Sejadah
> Tasbih
> Al - Qur'an

2. Pakaian Pesta
> Bahan Brokat (dibeliin calon mama mertua :D)
> Kain batik/songket (dibeliin calon mama mertua :D)
> Clutch
> Sepatu pesta

3. Pakaian formal/santai
> Dress
> Sendal Jalan
> Tas Jalan

4. Pakaian Kerja
> Kemeja kerja
> Celana bahan
> Blazer (tentative, tergantung mood & bajet XD)
> Tas kerja
> Sepatu Kerja

5. Pakaian Dalam & tidur
> Bra (uda ada 2 beli di Matahari, lg ngincer Victoria Secret :D)
> Underwear (uda ada 2 beli di Matahari, lg ngincer VS juga :D)
> Lingerie dress (uda ada 1 polkadot pink, tp lg ngincer VS, mungkin ganti VS ;D)
> Piyama (antara beli atau ngga deh)

6. Perawatan Wajah + Make Up
> Bedak muka (maybelline angelfit two-way-cake)
> Foundation (maybelline)
> Lipstick (maybelline)
> Mascara (maybelline unstoppable mascara)
> Eye liner (Oriflame)
> Blush on (Maybelline)
> Eye Shadow (Maybelline)
> Applicator make up

7. Perawatan Tubuh + Perlengkapan mandi
> Body Scrub (Body Shop Whitemusk)
> Body Lotion (Body Shop Whitemusk)
> Parfum (Body Shop Whitemusk-bodymist)
> Shower Gel (Body Shop Whitemusk)
> Handuk (Besar & Kecil) (Terry Palmer)
> Baju Handuk (dibeliin calon mama mertua katanya :D)
> Shampoo + Conditioner (Pantene)

8. Favorite Books ;D

> Nicholas Sparks series ^____^

(notebyme: the blue one says "ohyay! chikachan's fiance has bought me for her~ yippie; while the red one says "i'm waiting patiently for chikachan's fiance finally bought me to make chikachan happy ^^")

see see see??? betapa pemalas (atau miskin?)nya kamiii~ hahahaha~ 50days to go, oh we're in a hurry my dear~ ^__^ *a bit excited thinking about the shopping spree*

buat kotak seserahannya, sebenernya gw punya kotak yang gw pengenin sih, yang kayak gini nih :

atau yang kayak gini nih :

tapiii...kayaknya calon mama mertuaku udah punya persiapannya sendiri deh, dan katanya beliau yang mau urusin kotak2 seserahannya~ huhuhu~ masih pengen kotak mika iniii~ mudah2an mama juga berniat beliin yang kayak diatas :P

yaampuuuunnn uda mau jam 2!! si papi dibelakang uda bawel nyuruh tidur, coz besok masi harus kerja hihihi~ jadi sedih, nanti2 kalo udah nikah uda ga denger omelan kayak gini lagi dari doi kali yah~ hiks!

okay guys, gotta go!

cupss cupppsss!!!! ^____^

51daystogo..huhu~

2009-10-15T19:29:00.003+07:00

huwaaa~ judulnya bikin grogiiii~!!

ga kerasa uda ga nyampe 2 bulan lagi status gw akan berubah menjadi Mrs. *terharu*
makin stres aja...makin aneh2 pikirannya XDD

terakhir tadi siang tiba2 kepikiran...:kalo uda nikah ntar, pasti ga akan bisa ngegampangin masalah keuangan..yang biasanya, kalo gw punya kewajiban bayar tagihan apa gitu tapi gw juga punya keinginan beli sesuatu, gw bisa ngegampangin dengan bilang ke papa untuk bayarin tagihannya dulu..nanti setelah nikah mana mungkiiinnn T^T
hal2 manja yang selalu gw lakuin, pastinya uda ga akan pantes lagi nantinya huhuhu~
padahal meskipun gw anak pertama, gw kan manja banget T^T

mengenai persiapannya~ ahemm sipemalas ini sudah lumayan melakukan sedikit (sediiikkkiiiittt doang) kemajuan :D

banyak banget perubahan euyyy~
seperti akad yang akhirnya diputusin untuk diadain di mesjid rumah gw..pagi pula~ fiuuhh~~
itu kan artinya 2x acara toh? hmmm..cuma ya emang ini keinginan para ortu, jadi yah ya nurut aja deh...(pdhl kalo mikir nambah biayanya huhuhu T^T)

trus untuk prewed...hmmmm...pake yang ada ajah...klo sempet ntar mau poto studio aja dengan gaya2 lucu ala artis korea wkwkwkwkwk~ dan untuk fotografi liputan weddingnya, akhirnya pake yang paketan didalem paket WO...ga jadi pake temennya sipacar karena ada satu dua hal yang terjadi u___u ...
mudah2an hasilnya bagus~

hmm apa lagi yah...
oh iya, untuk undangan, akhirnya kami memutuskan untuk ga membeda2kan undangan..kan tadinya untuk undangan relasi orang tua dibedain dari undangan buat temen2 mempelai, karna rencananya untuk yang temen2 mau dibikin dual bahasa, tapi ternyata papaku kepingin undangannya dual bahasa juga..yah jadi, disepakatin bikin satu ajah, lagi pula waktunya uda mepet bangeettt~ sampe sekarang belum dicetak T^T

tapi yang bikin lumayan lega adalah~
bahan2 seragam untuk orang tua, kakak2 dan adek, among tamu dan temen2 gw udah siap dikirim ke yang punya masing2 :D
malem ini rencananya mau diambil~
dan direncanain juga minggu ini mau 'ngukur' buat kebaya para ibu :)

duh mudah2an lancar semuanyaa~ amiiinnn~

51 days to go...ckckckckck~

off dulu ah, mau pulang hihihi~
^______^

yahooooo~ back! :D

2009-10-01T19:04:00.003+07:00

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yayyayayayayyyy~ i'm back lovelies~!!
and ready to report all my effin' busy life, preparing the wedding :D

2 months away then i'll be Mrs. Ilham Firdaus *OMG!!*
antara excited dan stres yang amat sangat euy~

okayyy, time to go home!
will update it very soon! :D

~nyuuuuu~

spazz.

2009-05-21T06:01:00.003+07:00

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i don't feel like updating my wedding plan or everything,

life has been so cruel to me lately. but i'll survive, like any other time i did =)

everything's happen for a reason rite?

so, yeah..hope to see the rainbow anytime soon.

...

i still grateful for my current life, and love-life, tho.

am happy, and that's for sure =)

...

see you very soon!

and goodluck with your own life :)

it's friday~ ow ow ow~~

2009-05-08T09:37:00.003+07:00

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lama tak update ya? hihi~
dasar pemalas memang =P
kemaren mau posting rencananya, cuma feeling lagi no good, so..yeah hehe

okeh okeh..
about the wedding stuff, gw belum update soal gedung apa yang gw dapet yah?
so akhirnya gw uda DP gedung dan katering 2 minggu lalu..
dapet gedungnya di Cibubur, Taman Wiladatika tepatnya di Gd. Pandan Sari ^^
karna cuma gedung itu yang masuk kriteria kita suka dan ada tanggalnya hehe
gedungnya bagus sih, cahayanya gw suka, kuning2 gmn gitu dan kapasitasnya sampe 1000 orang-an hehe meskipun emang kudu masuk ke dalem wiladatikanya =P
mau gimana lagih~ pertama kali survey sambil testfood, pas liat gw dan si cpp (calon pengantin pria, red. =)) langsung suka, trus nanya2 ke mbak katering minta ditanyain available ga tanggal yg kita mau, eeehhh besoknya dikasi tau kalo available hehe langsung deh 2 hari kemudian DP hihi~

soal harga, sebenernya harganya waaaayyy so far from the budget yang uda kita patokin..
kita ngebajetin 3-4 jutaan buat gedung, tapi akhirnya dapetnya 6 juta LOL~ tapi alhamdulillah, dapet subsidi dari katering yang dipake..jadi biaya seluruhnya buat gedung :
5juta 50 ribu + 150rb (biaya akad)..
belum sama tambahan listrik buat photografi sih :(

ya ampuuunnn serius deh, gw stres abis soal ini..the wedding preparation maksudnya..
masalahnya pas kemaren kita itung2, ya ampuuuunnn over budget banget banget~ makanya lagi mau didiskusiin apa aja yang mau dikurangin hiks~
kita berdua ga mau banget terlalu ngeberatin ortu, makanya kalo bisa pake biaya sendiri sih pake deh biaya sendiri hiks~ itu salah satu alesan sekarang kami kerja rodi~ setidaknya ngurangin beban ortu deh..
duuuhh jadi takut ga bisa ngasi seragam buat sahabat2 kami deh :(

oh iya, entertainment juga uda DP minggu kemaren ehehe~ tapi apa itu entertainmentnya, masih rahasia hihi~ seneng ahhh sok berahasia2an huehehe~

tapi tapi, gw mau buka rahasia soal tanggal nikahnya aja yaahh~
kayaknya gw belum pernah bilang kapannya ya? apa udah? huehehe~
so, our glorious wedding will be held on December 5th, 2009
can't wait for that day to come deh..
karna, artinya kami uda ga pusing2 lagi mikirin persiapan kayak gini..dan sipacar pun ga perlu takut2 lagi gw pergi atau diambil orang hahaha~ ya hunnie yaa? =P
dan yang lebih menyenangkan lagiii~ itu artinya .... HONEYMOON!!! wakakakakakkk

honeymoon, salah satu yang gw tunggu2..
dan rencananya Bali jadi tujuan utama =)
tapi kemaren sempet stres soal bajet, dan sempet mutusin untuk ga usah pake honeymoon2an :( ...
begitu gw bilang sama si cpp, kalo mending ga usah ada honeymoon, dia langsung nanya "kok gitu?" trus ngeliatin, kyaknya sedih gitu, terus meluk...hiks~ jadi sedih..
mungkin dia pengen banget kali yah ngasi gw yang terbaik..
ya ampuuunn..emang gak salah milih dia hehe
yah, soal ini, kita liat nanti deh..kalo ada rejeki yah kita jalan...kalo ga ada ya cari alternatif tempat yang lebih deket dan terjangkau..toh bukan tempatnya yang diliat, tapi kebersamaannya hihii~ kualitasnya hmm hmm...
yasudah, kita lihat saja nanti ..ting!

waduh, waktunya bekerja kembali nih...pengennya sih ngeposting poto gedungnya, tapi belum dapet2 nih ngebrowsing.. nantilah ya hehe~
will update the blog after the meeting with our photographer this sunday lah~ hihi
*perasaan gw janji mulu =P

oke deh, see you soon~!!

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foto2 gedung Pandan Sari =P
(siapa tau bisa jadi rekomendasi ya buu~ =D )

pelaminannya :D
(lebar, panggungnya ga begitu tinggi dan ada tirainya..)

ceiling =3
(lumayan tinggi, banyak lampu2nya, sayangnya lampu kristal ada tapi didepan pintu masuk)

Tampak Samping ^^

(gedungnya melebar, dan disetiap sisi temboknya ada kayak lukisan/bingkai yang etnik gitu hehe)

sayang banget kita lupa foto tampak depan gedungnya, karna pas kita dateng acara yang nikahan udah mau dimulai dan ujan badai banget bo :(

tapi buat gw sih, gedung ini oke..dan gw baca dari blog orang yang pernah pake gedung ini pun, mereka ga kecewa...lagipula kalo yang bawa anak kecil lebih nyaman karna ada taman2nya gitu disekeliling gedung dan ada arena permainan kyak ayunan, sluncuran dll gituh hehe~ yah..agak ribet juga si ya, secara acara gw malem haha~

oke deh..gw out lagi~ =P

yay! it's friday, waktunya kencan, dan kali ini mau double date fufufu~ senangnyaaa hihii

bye guys! muaaah~!

@ the office, lembur time~

2009-04-18T13:05:00.002+07:00

hehe~

lagi nunggu waktu pulang ni, lagi dikantor, sendirian =(
baru dapet telp, sipacar yang mau jemput ternyata masi dirumah, padahal gw pulang 10menit lagi hiks~ katanya si jam 2 sampe sini...hhhh~ artinya gw kudu diem dulu dikantor sampe jam 2~
malah pake nyuruh nunggu di Citos lagi...lah??? =( kalo kesana kan pengen makan BK, padahal lagi flatbroke mampus hiks~

rencananya hari ini mau lanjut pencarian gedung..dan harus dapet...soalnya setelah dipikir2, ga jadi aja deh ngambil Pencak Silat, coz setelah diitung2 sama charge ini itu jadinya muahal bangetttt =(( padahal tempatnya bagus hiks~

dan setelah tadi chatting sama sipacar sebentar, kita consider untuk pindah tanggal, ngikutin gedung yang available, yaitu Bangda (teteeeppp ya jeung!), coz katanya ada tanggal 13nya..yahh liat ntar deh...pusing banget mikirinnya +____+ mudah2an cepet selesai aja, biar bisa fokus ke yang lain~

dududuhhh~ pengen nonton dehhh...pengen nonton Knowing dr kemaren, ehh ngeliat pesbuk shincun -doi nonton juga dan katanya bagus...jadi makin penasaran!! padahal beneran lagi flatbroke~ kenapa keinginan banyak sekaliiiiiiii~~ huhuhu~ dan kenapa pula limit si Batman uda hampir habisss~ *guling2
nunggu gajian seminggu lagi yaa~ itu juga langsung buat bayar utang sama nabung~ hwaaaa~ hedonnya kapaaaannn???? hiks!!!

gw random banget hari ini hahaha~
abis kesepian gilaaa, sendirian diruangan~ dan dikit lagi uda pada mau balik para teacher, soalnya kelas uda selesai semua =((

yaudah ahh~ mau closing payment dulu trus maen pesbuk nunggu jam 2 hahahaha~

see you guys around ne???
bye byeee~!

CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUPPPPP~!!!!

7 months to go... venue? still =___=

2009-04-17T11:59:00.005+07:00

heeeeyyy~
it's me~ yang punya blog hahaha...

gilee uda berapa lama ga nulis ya haha, gara2 terlalu sibuk ini itu, jadinya begitu nyampe depan komp langsung males nulis heuheuehue

niwey, kabar baru dari gw adalaahh...aku sekarang suda 3 minggu kerja di TBI hoho~ dan si bos suda berani melepasku over time besok sendirian LOL~ padahal mah, dia ga aware kalo sama aja, besok HPnya bakal berdering terus dari gw yang nanya2 mulu haha...
so far, kerja disini enak banget, orang2nya asik2, seniornya seru2 dan baik2...bosnya baeeekkk bgt hohohoho~ ah fun lah pokoknya ^^

...
uhm, bingung ga si soal title gw? gak yah?? haha~

jadi, kenapa gw menyebut venue, still karna sampe saat ini, kami belum menemukan venue yang available ditanggal kami dan yang srek =___=;; capeeeekkk banget deh padahal,,,tiap minggu kita kelilingan jaksel-jaktim buat nyri venue, tapi setiap ada yang disuka, ada aja kendalanya..entah itu tanggalnya full, cuma bisa siang aja, atau katring kami yang ga rekanan sama gedung...hiks~
bener2 mancing emosi, akhirnya jadi suka berantem2 kecil, keluar air mata..tapi selesai dengan cepat sih...
bener2 yah, ngurusin nikah itu bikin stres banget..sampe ga bisa ngapa2in..even buat kongkow sama temen2 aja ga sempet bulan2 ini..hiks~

sebenernya tuh, kalo dari bulan februari uda booking gedung, pasti dapet deh..cuma masalahnya papa gw yang jauh jadi susah komunikasinya sama camer...tapi alhamdulillah, minggu lalu mereka uda ketemuan lagi dan ngomongin tanggal dan segala persiapannya...seneng deh ^^ tapi yah akhirnya gedung2 itu uda keduluan orang.

hmm..gedung2 yang kita incer dan sreg tuh dikit banget ya..soalnya sebenernya kita pengen gedung yang nyaman, bisa muat 1000 org tapi dengan harga murah hehe~ tapi yah semua calon pengantin juga maunya gitu, so siapa cepat dia dapat deh =( sempet kepikiran dan memutuskan untuk pindah tanggal sih, dimajuin gitu..tapi liat ntar deh gimana dapetnya..

ini nih gedungnya :

1. DepTan, Ragunan. udah pasti semua orang yang pernah ngurusin nikahan tau gimana OKnya ni gedung..uda gede (kapasitas 2000 org), parkiran luas, gedung bagus, akses gampang, murah bgt lagi. tapi sayang problemnya, siapa yang mau nikah di DepTan kudu berlomba2 booking dari 1 tahun sebelumnya..karna kemaren aja uda full sampe Mei 2010! gila~! *gagal deh nikah diDepTan -pdhl impian gw banget!!

2. Bangda-Depdagri, kalibata. menurut kita OK, soalnya AC dingin, parkiran lumayan gede, gedung juga bagus -gedung sendiri lg-, harga sangat bersahabat, tempatnya jg lumayan mudah dijangkau, dan rekanan katring yang gw pake. problemnya, uda full untuk bulan Desember. T___T sedi banget pdhl sipacar uda brp kali nelp2in hehe~ tetep ga ada tgl =(

3. Sasana Pakarti, Duren Tiga. baguss, kiteria sama ama Bangda, ditambah ada kosong untuk tanggal gw..tapi problemnya, ternyata doi ga rekanan sama katring kita dan ga fleksibel pula buat nerima katring luar so...yeah Passed!

4. Balai Komando, Cijantung. ini OK, kita udah liat dr luar gedungnya bagus, ceiling tinggi dan ada lampu kristal yg bagus..harga aga lumayan tapi worth it lah. problemnya adalah, akses kendaraannya susah, karna dia letaknya didalam komplek so tamu yang ga ada kendaraan agak bingung masuknya, meski ada angkot2 mobil pribadi gitu..pokoknya ribet deh...ditambah lagi krn masalah ini, mamanya sipacar ga begitu setuju. so...lewat lagi~

5. Padepokan Pencak Silat, TMII. naaahhh kalo yang ini, sebenernya kita waiting list ke 3, tapi ternyata tadi malem dikabarin kalo ternyata mbak Nia, kakak paling tuanya sipacar, punya temen yang guru silat disini, jadi bisalah buat bantuin..nah lagi nunggu kabar nih~ dududuhh~ mudah2an bisa deh, uda stres nyari =( buat problemnya, gedung ini lumayan mahal karna ada banyak charge ini itu, ada minimal harga katring per porsi juga dan bukan rekanan dari ketring yang gw pake =( jadi sebenernya rada ribet juga...

6. Antam, Tj Barat. uda ga mungkin, soalnya ga rekanan katring gw dan ga bisa nerima org luar, jadi mau gmn pun ga bisa =((

itu cuma list gedung2 yang menurut kita masuk kriteria ya...kalo yang kita survey sih wuidihhh..sebutin aja tuh gedung2 di Jaksel hiks~ sedih kalo inget..

kalo diliat disitu, kesannya gw terpaku banget sama katring yang gw pake ya? hmmm bener banget sih, soalnya kita ga mungkin pake katring yang lain, coz nyokap gw uda wanti2 HARUS pake katring itu =( oiya, gw pake Rizal's Catering...makanannya katanya enak sih, dan paket all in nya termasuk murah meriah hehe~ ditambah, tetangga2 gw hampir semua pake dia, makanya nyokap keukeuh ikutan pake juga dengan alasan, karna semua tetangga uda tau ni katring, uda akrab sama rasanya so bisa menghindari dumelan diakhir acara dr ibu2 yg emang lumayan rese2 hehe~

pusing kaaaaannnn???
huhuhu~
tinggal berdoa aja deh Pencak Silat bisa dipake..tinggal 7 bulan lagi dan belom ada yang selesai dilakukan.. =(

uda ah, mau makan siang..
dan meratapi keribetan gw haha~
i'll see you guys very soon okay...?
very soon lah ehhehehe~

bye byeee~
^________________^

random post =p

2009-03-25T01:37:00.002+07:00

hehe..

i know, i supposed to write about my wed preparation...but errrr~

my mood was ruined by something =p

so, i feel so careless about the wedding today hehe..

hope tomorrow it'll get better ^^

anywayyss~

tomorrow going to be my last day teaching.. kinda sad, but hehe..

aaahhh~ i'm gonna miss all my little brats ...

no more korean~ hiks!

oh yeah! something happened later today!

my dad's suddenly back home~! LOL~ so happpyyyyy~

i miss him~

tanpa kasi tau apa2 tiba2 doi minta dibikinin teh jahe, and my mom thought that he's joking...

but then he said that he's already in Pejaten LOL~

what a surprise~!!

akhirnya kita bisa ngumpul lagi deeehhh fufufufu~

jadi pengen belanja bareng lagi, makan bareng lagii~ uuuuungg!

uhm, meskipun mood gw ga bagus banget buat ngurus persiapan wedding itu..tapi yeah, setelah dirayu2 akhirnya gw memutuskan untuk lanjut...walaupun hati uda setengaahh dan bener2 ga semangat lagi...tapi yah...nothing to lose lah..

so tomorrow i plan to :

buy lingerie/underwear buat seserahan

tanpa sipacar tentunya...sumpah gw risih banget kalo ada dia milih2 beginian hahaha~

padahal dulu pas pacaran sama sibastard ga ada tuh risih2nya, malah suka ngerjain doi ngajak2 ngelewatin bagian lingerie LOL~! tapi sekarang bedaaaa~ gw maluuuuu bgt seriusan.. mau ngomongin soal ini aja malu banget hahaha~

...jadi, besok yang akan gw lakukan adalah :

1. berangkat lebih pagi, hunting lingerie, beli =p

2. hunting bodyshop buat shower setnya~

3. cari present for the brats buat farewell'an ...at least buat jooyoun, karna uda janjian kemaren

4. lesson ; ngomong sama para ortu mau berenti

5. hope there'll be dinner with my boo =p uda 2 hari ga ketemu, katanya dia kangen banget LOL!

and...done!

berdoa, semoga besok hari yang menyenangkan..

jauh dari kata, BT dan sedih ^^

i pray for my buddies too...

i'm out! woohooo~

changing skin =D

2009-03-17T04:37:00.002+07:00

yeah!

i found the new cute interesting skin hehe~ gruuummmpppyyyy toaaaastttt~~~ LOVE THE TOAST!!!! looooooooooove it!!

eventho i'm not really a grumpy head (for sure =9) and it's actually not really fit in what i wrote and goin' to write on the blog but i can't help to not use it~ the toast's sooooooo cuuutttteee hehe~

so, hehe..who cares it's fit or not with the blog story =p

it's mine anyway =D

my wed preparation [part 1]

2009-03-17T01:32:00.004+07:00

okaaaayyyy~~

i really am going to talk about all the preparation for my wedding ^^

OMG! i'm so excited!! ahaha~ *is norak

sebenernya sih, kita udah ngerancang-rancang, mikirin ini itu, ngelist itu ini dari beberapa minggu setelah perkenalan keluarga =p ... tapi yah yang bener2 gitu gragas nyiapin ya mungkin baru sekarang kali yah, itu juga karena tiba2 kami sadar kalo udah ngebuang waktu dan uang banyak dibulan2 awal kemaren hehe..

maklum juga sih, namanya juga pasangan baru...jajan teruuuusss~ ngehedon teruuussss XDDD

yah secara yah, pacaran baru 2 minggu uda dilamar-like, dan mengutip kata sipacar...kita pacaran karna nunggu waktu nikah ^^, oh yes, he's proposing me to be his wife, not a girlfriend, at first.. ^^ so, yeah..masih norak XDDDD

well anyway, i found sooo many interesting blogs that talking about their wedding preparation. and it's totally help! yeahh...all full of informations which i really need to know..maklum, i never knew about all this stuff before =p

sebagian blognya ya ini nih :

http://nissa4ever.multiply.com/

http://ourwedjournal.blogspot.com/

http://lovejournal.widjanarti.com/ --------> kalo gak salah katanya blog ini masuk majalah chic~ kerennnn ^^

sebenernya masih banyak si yang lain, tapi linknyaa~ hilang, kudu dicari lagi huhu~

i'll put it in if i manage to find it ^^

okaaaayyyyy soooo~

untuk kali ini yang lagi kami lakuin adalah :

1. Nyari gedung resepsi yang pas

2. Mulai nyusun the REAL list for seserahan, and start to buy it =p

3. Ngumpulin sebanyak-banyaknya info soal printilan2 wedding

4. Nyari rumah =p

5. Kerja rodi buat nabung hehe

6. Nyiapin mental biar tetep berkepala dingin di fase prewedding hehe *which is very important i think =D

kalo buat gw sendiri, gw lagi kecanduan liat2 gedung resepsi yang murah tapi bagus haha dan nyari2, ngesev2in contoh2 kebaya hahaha~ akhirnya sih dapet juga inspirasi model kebaya kayak apa yang gw mau buat akad dan resepsi.

kalo sipacar sih, doi lagi gila duit-gila kerja haha~ maksudnya, doi lagi kayak orang kejar setoran..apa2 mau dibisnisin, nyari side job sana sini buat modal nikah..haha~ kasian sayang akuuu~~

soal wedding ini, kami memutuskan buat bikin wedding yang seekonomis mungkin tapi bagus dan sakral...gak mau terlalu nyusahin ortu sih, so kami ngusahain bajetnya se'normal' mungkin hehe...makanya itu, buat gedungnya, kita nyarinya yang murah tapi muat banyak dan ga terlalu 'sederhana' ...dan ternyata banyak loohhh~~ cuman tinggal kita sabar aja huntingnya dan banyak doa supaya pas udah nemu gedung yang cocok, tanggalnya pun kosong hehe...

gw cukup sedih juga sih gak dapet Deptan...secara yah my dream wedding tuh disitu dari dulu... tapi yah, mungkin belom jodoh hehehe~

udah ada inceran sih sekarang, yang pokoknya bertempat di area Jakarta Selatan...mau mulai hunting weekend depan ^^

oh iya, sebenernya pada awalnya kita mau pake WO sobat gw, Eninta...but tiba2 aja my mom minta untuk make Rizal's wedding service aja...secara katanya bajet lumayan terjangkau, dan banyak yang bilang cateringnya enak-enak, ditambah lagi tetangga2 rumah yang mulutnya rada 'kreatif' uda banyak yang pake dan mengakui kalo Rizal's punya bisa dikasih label "Hot Pick" huehehe~ so yeah~

belum ngomong sama Enin sih, tapi biar gitu tetep lah gw akan pake jasanya enin dengan 'menjahit all the outfit for the wedding' ke dia ^_____^ mudah2an she doesn't mind..hehe

dan jugaaa...kita punya rencana buat bikin undangan dan souvenir sendiri, gak mesen hehe buat ngurang2in bajet ceritanya...begitu juga sama poto prewedding, rencananya kita mau manfaatin temen buat meminimalisir bajet..secara dulu sipacar juga sempet jadi tukang poto keliling haha yah lumayanlah ada temennyah, udah gitu cuma mau minta potoin doang, buat cetak, desain, bikin album dll, itu mau mandiri hehehe~

intinya nikahan ini bisa dibilang ajang kreatifitas gw berdua...dan mudah-mudahan aja semua pada nerima dengan baik nantinya...amiiinnnn~~

soal seserahan juga, gw akhirnya memutuskan untuk gak mau cari barang2 yang too exclusive and expensive, mengingat sipacar pake biaya sendiri dan...kalo dipikir2 juga yah what the use beli barang2 yang too expensive...cuma buat pamer2an doang kayaknya...tapi akhirnya malah ngeberatin sicowok...jadi yah, palingan gw cari barang seserahan yang 'normal-normal' aja, asal ada, buat mempertahankan tradisi..

kalo mau morotin mah, ntar juga punya waktu seumur hidup buat morotin suami huahahahaha~

lagian ntar apa kata calon keluarga baru gw kalo baru mau nikah aja udah nyusahin minta ini itu hihihi~ ngeriiii~~ impressionnya ntar dundundunn~ veryyyy bad~~ hiiiiii~

OH IYA, gw juga baru tau loh, kalo ternyata pihak cewek juga ngasih seserahan ya buat sicowokk...ckckck~ berarti gw juga kudu ekstra nabung nih =p

aduh aduh aduuuuhh...

kayaknya blog gw berantakan yaaa~ =(

ga beraturannn...

ntar deh, kalo ada waktu mau diberesin, ganti skin juga hehe~ itu juga ditambah kalo inget juga hahaha~

buat sekarang, i better go to sleep...it's 3 am.! LOL~

aaahhh~ i'll tell you story next time...

so excitinggg~ hihiihi~

i'm Ouuuuuuttttt~~ MUAHHH~!

OMG!! i'm getting married~!

2009-03-15T02:34:00.003+07:00

Yes, yes~

you read it right! *pointed at the title

i'm getting married for real =D

sebenernya mah emang uda rencana dari awal pacaran yah 2bulanan lalu =D *yes, 2 months correct ;D

cuma berasaaaa banget realnya tuh ya sekarang2 ini hehe..

pas bener2 lagi milih2 gedung, pas bingung2nya milih tanggal..

padahal kemaren2 juga sempet ketemuan sama temen gw yang punya WO..

dateng ke Wedding Expo juga di JCC

tapi kok berasa gregettnya baru sekarang2 ini yah...

apa mungkin semakin kesini si pacar semakin giat tanpa kenal lelah ngeyakinin gw yah haha *i love you hunnie~ * XD iyah jadinya gw makin yakin kalo mau nikah hahaha~

wajar gak sih kalo gw masih butuh diyakinin (tapi sekarang udah nggak =D) kalo it's real, that he's goin' to marry me..yah secara yah sebelumnya pacaran hampir 9 tahun dan endingnya gw disia2in gitu ajah..tanpa kejelasan dari orangtuanya juga..depresi? sangat!! tapi ikhlas kok hehe ...trus ttanpa nunggu waktu lama, sipacar yang sekarang bilang ke gw, "let's get married", dan akhirnya jadilah kami sekarang.. XD dengan waktu yang singkat...so? wajar ga? *is minta pembenaran XDD

oh well, kenapa malah curhat XD

eniweys, yang mau gw bilang..mungkin (mungkin, kalo gw rajin =p) setelah ini blog gw bakalan berisi pengalaman2 gw dalam nyiapin ni wedding~ yah kali2 aja ada yang baca trus kebetulan mau merrid juga, MUNGKIN bisa ngebantu, dikit.. hehe~

well, sekarang aku dan sipacar sedang heboh nyari gedung..takut bo keabisan ditanggal yang dipengenin..duh dan parahnya, sebenernya tanggal pun masih belom jelas kapannya..secara yah, hari ini ada satu kejadian -and it's bad i tell you (oh it's a secret..*zipped mouth~ =p) yang bikin gw bilang, "okay hun, let's marry faster..like couple of months faster..july?" LOL~ dan sipacar cuma bisa bengong dan bilang, "okay, tapi akad dulu ya, acara tetep ditanggal sebelumnya" ... dan gw pun langsung bilang "No Way!" haha~ dan akhirnya, kami (kami, cuma berdua xp -atau lebih tepatnya gw? tapi doi setuju tentunya XD) memutuskan untuk maju dibulan oktober..but, belum tentu juga...mana kita tau deh para orang tua bakal ngamuk/pingsan/males atau gak hahaha~ kalo kayak gitu kejadiannya sih ya balik ke rencana awal, bulan desember =) (oh iya, kita rencana nikah awal desember ^^)

aaaahh~ cerita gw kenapa berlibet gini~ haha~

too excited for tomorrow, rencana mau hunting gedung sendiri disekitar jakarta selatan~

aaaahhhhh~ guys, doain lancar2 aja yah ^^

semoga digampangin semua urusan, amiiiinn hehe~

mending tidur dulu deh, besok terusin lagi =p

tataaaaawww~

^.~

back ^^ hehe

2009-02-19T23:23:00.003+07:00

i'm back~

at last...

so many things happened, so weaky my brain to remember all LOL~

yeah, my life~ still full of bliss and bitch hehe

but i enjoy it tho...

no regret~ no regret hehe..

hmmm... i missed my friends..my friday-nights-whore friends..

it feels like it's been forever since we spent after hour together, just the three of us or with another lads in some nights...

i really missed that moment.. T___T

but maybe it's just me who miss it, hehe

since it seems i'm the only one who thinks that they're the bestfriend for life hehe.

oh well..that's my problem to sulked. i wont bitch anyone with this pesimist feeling LOL *coughliarcough*

olrito then...

i'll be off now, and sulking haha~

bye?

here we go again~

2009-01-24T05:52:00.006+07:00

...

hhhh~

capeknyaaa kemaren masih kerasa sampe sekarang...sampe2 bisa kebangun subuh gini, padahal lagi gak sholat dan baru tidur jam 1~ =____=;;

mungkin saking pikirannya yah~~

hhhh~

well anyway,

kemaren terjadi misunderstanding antara gw dan pacar...

kalo gw pikir sih, itu cuma masalah adaptasi sama pasangan aja...so, nothing's big and bitchy..

but yeah, still it's kinda hurts...hehe...but oh well, namanya juga pacaran, belum sebulan pula (ihiiiww~~ besok sebulanan~ pyo pyooo~~!) jadi masih belum bisa nyari sela ^^

will get used to it in any time ^^

tapi yah gw ngerasa bedaaa banget sama dulu... well sekarang yah berantemnya, lebih tepatnya berdebat sih, lebih 2 arah aja...saling mengeluarkan apa yang ada dipikiran gitu...dan gwnya juga nanggepin dengan sabar dan kepala dingin, meski sempet kesulut emosi tapi trus pikiran jernih tetep jalan dan si batu itu gw kikis pake air hahahahaha~ *iyehhh random abis, gak penting..

ngerasa banget sih sakit2 selama 9 tahun yang lalu itu ngebawa hasil...gw jadi lebih mau ngerti pacar yang sekarang dan lebih dewasa aja~

pacar yang sekarang emang jelesan banget...tapi ntah kenapa gw seneng2 aja hehe...mungkin karna ngerasa banget disayangnya yah ^^ malah kadang lucu sendiri sama sipacar~ fufuffu~

jadi sadar banget kalo sekarang i'm falling so deep in love hahahaha~~ cepet banget gw jatuh cintanya~ XDDD~ meski emang masih dalam proses healing~ ngumpulin pieces to pieces hati gw kemaren yang diacak2 sama si so-called-ex-boyfriend...but so far, everything's great..

bisa aja dia bikin gw melting...ahuahuahua~

komen dari adek gw adalah :

"nah sekarang lo udah dapetin kan semua yang lo harepin dari pacar lo?!"

dan dengan itu, gw bersyukur banget...Allah sayang banget sama gw, setelah ngasih ujian yang for the longest time i live was the hardest , akhirnya dia ngasih what i'm looking for...

and i hope, it will last...

tugas gw sekarang adalah beradaptasi dengan kekurangan2nya dia and vice versa...bukan mencoba ngerubah dia seperti yang gw mau~

it'll take all my patience i think, but i'll survive . . . ^^,

and i am never regretting what i've been through with my ex-boyfriend...maybe we're not meant for each other dan emang tinggal tunggu waktu aja buat pisah...mungkin salahnya cuma endingnya yang cukup ngebunuh gw selama berhari2 hahaha~

at least dalam 9 tahun itu bukan cuma sedih kok yang gw dapet, tapi lots of happiness too..and the most important is, pembelajaran tentang bagaimana bersikap lebih dewasa dan how to keep your relationship save and sway XDDD

aaaahhh~~

i shed my first tears because of my boyfriend last night...dan anehnya, gw ngerasa lega karna akhirnya gw bisa nangis buat sipacar, it means for me, he's finally worth my tears LOL~ aneh emang... hope there wont be too much tears in my relationship~~

^____^

aaaahhhhh~~ sedikit lega setelah nulis ini hahahaha~~

ichan : iyayah, terlalu jujur? hahaha~ gitu deh sayah...you can easily read my life...haha~ terlalu extrovert

bang mail :YES, me and my song of life LOL~

miss chika will be out now..

save sex guys! LOL~ kidding~~!

eat well!!! *winks

oh wait, by the way,

i LOOOVE Junpyo from BBF!! HAHAHAHA~~

another domyoji fetish XDDDD

m'kaaayyy~ Bye yo!!

the song sings my love life!!

2009-01-20T16:27:00.002+07:00

...

tiba2 venda ngasih link lagu ini, disuruh nyari liriknya...

begitu ketemu dan baca, FUCKEEEEEEEEEEEERRRR~!!! dalem banget!!

kayak kisah masa lalu gw dinyanyiin!! anjrit!!

GA ADA YANG BEDA!!!!!! semua sama~ berasa gw distalking mbak Beyonce trus ditulisin lagu XDDDDDDD

....

so if you want to know how my 9 years relationship ended ... yah beginilah, seperti di lagu XDDD~

Beyonce - If I Were A Boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I'd roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it.
Cause they'd stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed.

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they'd think that I was sleepin' alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waitin' for me to come home
To come home.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed.

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong.

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
Yeah you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed.
But you're just a boy

biasanya kan gw selalu ngebold lirik2 yang ngena, kali ini ga perlu~ semuanya ngena~ XDDDD

fuckaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh~~~~~!! *maklumi bahasa saya, lagi PMS XD*

capek ah~ mau hunting barang lg ;D

i'm out! <3

hahas

2009-01-01T04:36:00.002+07:00

i'm weird, i know XD

iseng...

got this Quiz by blogging around~ wanna try it lalalala~

...

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.
They have to be real places, name and/or objects but nothing made up.
Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same initial.
You can't use your name for the girl/boy question.

My name is: Chika chan
Boy's name: Charlie (?_?) LOL~
Girls name: Chikitta~
Occupation: Clerk XD
Colour: C...Ch...Cherry colour? haha~
Something you wear: Casio Watch
Beverage: Cappucinoo~
Food: Chocolatoes
Place: Chungnam XD
Something found in the bathroom: C....huh?
Reason for being late: Chatting XDDD~
Something you shout: CANTIIIIKKKKK~~~!! XDDDDDDDDD
Font: Comic sans ?
Show: Comedy showww~~
Song title: Close to you~ hooo hoooowww~~
Country: China ... (oh how i wish korea start with C ;__;)

Name 5 people to pass this on:
- Ichaki~!
- Ayame
- Tiwie
- Icha
-Ismail

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

i'm out, for real! 8DD

Happy New Year!!

2009-01-01T04:08:00.004+07:00

...

waw waw waw!!

HAPPY YEAR 2009!!

may everything that you wish for will be come true this year~

may our days will always accompanied by happiness, good luck, and all the great

don't look back and move on for the greater good.

OOOOHHH YEAAAAHHH~~~!!

aaaaaaahhh~

senangnyaa~!

meskipun acara tahun baruan rada garing XD

hanya berdiam diri dikamar hesti, doing nothing but spazzing bout useless things but still, i had fun! ^^

got new baby now, so have to take care of him start from now..fufufu~

hope this time will last forever ^^

*pray hard pray hard XD*

been on lots of depressive times last year, so must fight for the better this year! ohyeah~!

aahh~ i'll post my 2009's resolution next time~

skrg saya lupa ;p

okie dokie~

mau bobo duluwww~~

masih ada party yg menunggu nanti siang fufufuu~

miss.fabs yang kembali bahagia says,

i'm OUT but will be back soon!

*cipoks brutal*

2008-12-30T14:11:00.002+07:00

...

aaaaaaaaackkk! aku pingsan liat pics DBSK di gayo daejun!

hwaaaaaaaaa smexy!!!

*isdead*

suka banget tato barunya jaejoong! uhhh keren~

eh eh pas lagi kelilingan soompi nemu something interesting ihiiiww~

...

YOU KNOW YOU'RE OBSESSED WITH TVXQ WHEN...

(coba kita lihat, segimana terobsesinya kah gw 8DDD~ yg gw banget = bold!)

- Everything that you basically own that can play CDs/mp3s, has their music in it!
- You "silent scream" while watching their performances, and then replay the video just to make sure. And the process repeats itself (x83505756..)
- You know those moments when, lets say.. the boys break out into pelvic thrusts (O__o) and your jaw drops to the floor, and doesn't come back up.. Yeah XD
- You know you're obsessed when you see a dolphin and the first thing you think of is "JUNSU!"
- You know you're obsessed when you read "Twilight" and you think Jae is Edward.
- You know you're obsessed when you buy everything Micky Mouse you see simply because Yoochun is also named, "Micky."
- You know you're obsessed when the word food immediately makes you think "CHANGMIN!"
- You know you're obsessed when you're a girl and you get Jae's haircut.
- You know you're obsessed when you buy something because it reminds you of TVXQ.
- You know you're obsessed when you get mad, for reals, if someone says something bad about TVXQ.
- You know you're obsessed when everyone around you says, "Damn, why do you like boys who look like girls?"
- You know you're obsessed when your wall, desktop, cellphone, and mp3 player are filled with pictures of TVXQ.
- You know you're obsessed when you compare every guy you meet with TVXQ.
- read a music article and expect TVXQ to be mentioned.
- watch a show just to hear them talk about the boys for 1 minute. (:giggle:)
- you can answer any question about them
- you have a bunch of tvxq icons, wallpapers, etc. on your computer
- you imagine yourself meeting them xD
- you want to learn korean/japanese because they speak those languages
- you've watched their videos so many times you know some dance parts
- just looking at their pictures/videos makes you happy
- you feel deprived of dbsk when you cant use the computer/your internet's not working
- You recognize all their voices when you listen to their songs.
- You daydream about them.
- your alarm clock is the wake up messages they did (yay for yoochun in the morning!).
- you try to wear the same clothes they do (like banc).
- you get excited when they own the same things as you (Sony Vaio laptop!! YA!)
-You are bored during class and find yourself writing over and over again "TVXQ"... all over the sheet of paper where you're suposed to be taking down notes...
- More than the majority of your songs are of DBSK.
- You've considered choosing the names of your children with [insert member name].
- You think of one of them as your future husband. (or all of them, XD)
- You remember and celebrate their birthdays but not your friends', and sometimes.. your parents' "
- You place DBSK and fangirling before health, sleep and especially homework XD
-You've printed all the existing piano sheets you could find to their songs...even though you cannot play half of them.
- You're late to school almost every morning because you're watching a video.
- You repeat every single song you love of theirs ahemBOLEROahem
- The time you spend on the computer is mostly for them/because of them
- Wake up at 4AM to catch the last hour of GDA.
- They're sad, you're sad. When they're happy, you're happy.
- Just a picture of them smiling can brighten up your day.
- You've had a bad day and they're the only people that can cheer you up.
- You can't last longer than 3 days without going on Soompi/watching their videos/listening to their songs etc

You know you're obsessed with TVXQ when you think of something funny/hot/sexy/cute they did, and start grinning like mad. In fact, when something reminds you of them, you can't help but chuckle and smile.

Credits: iscreamshinki.net

I am so obsessed with them! HAHAHAHAHA~~

i'm out. nothing else to do XDDDD

2008-12-29T04:53:00.003+07:00

............

Long time not writting anything~ dudududduuu~~

aku sedang menikmati hidup baru soalnya XDD

pasca depresi, widiiiiwww~!

masih suka inget sih, apalagi kemaren sempet main ke Subang, rumah nenek...

keingetan waktu liburan lebaran kemarin si mantan pacar pergi bareng keluarga besar gw kesana~

huhuhu~ padahal udah gak mau ikutan tuh kemaren, takut keingetan gini, tapi yaaa~ dipaksa..

untung juga tuh si "newcomer" 8D membuat gw sibuk dengan sms2nya yang ga ada capeknya LOL!

hayooooo~~ siapa itu newcomer?? XDDDD~

seperti pepatah mengatakan, mati satu tumbuh seribu LOL~

baru juga melewati masa depresi, eeeehhh sudah ada yg dateng XD *sombong mode on XD

enywaii~ siyal bener...

tadi lagi main FB, ceritanya kan iseng2 tuh ikutan kuis 'Which DBSK member are you?'

WIDIIIIWWW~ dapetnya JAEJOONGIE dunk!

TAPIII~~ pertanyaan terakhir nyesekin! XD

you're most sad when...
(a) when you don't have enough money to take a good care of your parents
(b) your friends get in to trouble but you cant help them at all
(c) when you can't see one of your parents no matter how much you miss them
(d) breaking up your 8 years relationship with your lover.
(e) i'm sad when other people are sad.

anjrit!!! 8DD telak banget pukulannya HAHAHA~

....

aaaaaaaaaahhhh~! random banget postingan kali ini~

karna aku malas, belum tidur XD nunggu donlotan Big Bang juga hihihi~

mau tidurr aaaahhh~~

lain kali balik lagi~ mau ngomongin soal yang lebih penting dari ini LOL!

me, the cutey, said over and OUT!

Not Me, Not I

2008-12-21T01:42:00.002+07:00

You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we were seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I

The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, not I, not I

All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery never did believe
No I never cry no I never not me not I

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I, not I, Not I
No not me, not I

Delta Goodrem - Not Me, Not I.

vacation, here i come!!

2008-12-20T02:49:00.002+07:00

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akhirnya aku pergi liburan besoookk!! YAY! meski hanya ke bandung, setidaknya keluar dulu dari kota ini. dimana setiap pojok ngingetin sama si pacar.

lagipula gw butuh liburan ini untuk berpikir. tentang apa yang selanjutnya harus gw pilih dan yang terbaik untuk masa depan gw.

i really am depressed. i cant eat, work or even walk properly. so i need to gather myself back. think positif thought. and all~

aku ngantuk, besok harus berangkat. so i better sleep. nanti dilanjutin besok aja ahhh postingannya...see ya!

POKOKNYA AKU LIBURAAANNN~!!!

Why were they doing this to their loved ones? Betrayal never has a plausible excuse, the traitor should be staked to death for the sheer glut of wanting another when he already had someone warming his bed and caring for his heart.

*imie_chan @LJ*

i need vacation!!!

2008-12-19T03:46:00.004+07:00

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GOSH!!

I'm dead now!

gila, ntah dengan cara apa lagi dia nyakitin gw~ tinggal tunggu aja deh.

sedih banget rasanya pas ngeliat message gw didelete. ntah apa maksudnya.

yah at least dia sudah baca.

tapi komennya di fsnya sendiri itu, it's offending my siblings!

pdhl adik2 gw kan cuma mau ngebelain dan mempertahankan pride kakaknya yang udah diinjek2 sama "temen2 baru who're desperate in need"nya ituh. OMG!

salah ya kalo adik belain kakak?

dan mereka tau jelas kok masalahnya.

GOD! i really need some escape before i put dagger on my throat as an accessorie. -___-;;

gw juga liat komen ceweknya ke dia,

black box
Posted 12/18/2008 5:32 pm
inget A....
huKum kaRma berLaKu
aa ada ade pereMpuan
mereKa bakaLan ngeraSain rasa saKit yang leBih saKit dari y gw rasain

(hhh...dek dek, hanya orang yang BERIMAN yang diterima doanya, bukan orang yang suka MENGUMBAR PERZINAHANNYA dan lebih buruknya lagi MEMFITNAH seseorang sudah berzinah. jadi tenang aja a XDD)

awalnya sempet berpikir, hmm apa mereka suda putus?

tapi ini gw kok jadi makin ga percaya yah dia uda mutusin ceweknya, masalahnya gw liat di fs cewek itu aja 1 person in her feature friend sudah kembali dia, si kapten kepiting,dan itu diubah 2 jam yang lalu, setelah komen dibuat.

waaahh~ apakah itu caranya mengibuli saya lagi???

LOL!

maunya gw sih ya, kalo emang he wants me to leave just say it out loud, gak perlu pake cara gitu.

tapi asal tau aja sih,gw yakin seyakin2 hidupnya gak akan pernah lepas dari bayang2 gw. XD

siapa lagi yang bisa tahan dengan manusia kepiting selama 9 tahun selain ... si supergirl? LOL!

aaaahhh~

upside down banget hari ini...

awalnya seneng, aaahh sudah putus mungkin.

tapi begitu ditegesin, hmmm ada keganjilan. XD

eeehhh~ down lagi deh.

aahhh tau deh.

tetep sih gw masih percaya sicowok. i've known him since forever gitu..

yang penting sekarang, saya butuh liburan. beside, my friends keep pestering me to get some vacation for myself. hmmm~ besok cari deh, kalo dapet tujuan mungkin malem langsung berangkat, i dunno.

yang jelas, gw mau mencoba menTerapi diri selama liburan itu.

dalam 1 minggu itu, gw mau mengeluarkan semuuuuua rasa sakit yang gw rasain,gw bakal nangis sepuas2nya, bakal teriak2 sepuasnya.

dan setelah liburan berakhir, gw pulang kerumah, gw kembali dengan membawa SAYA yang baru. yang siap untuk move on dan menata hidup untuk diri sendiri dan gak pernah nengok kebelakang lagi. semoga apa yang gw harapkan ini berhasil gw jalani dengan baik lah ^^

doakan aku kuat teman!!

lagipula papaku pulang tanggal 24 dec. gw gak mau menunjukkan wajah depresi didepan si papa, karna dia pasti bakal tau something bad has happen to his daughter and his family.

BUT, inspite of everything he's done to me... i still love him dearly, and there's a little hope that he'll come to his sense and realize what he's trying to get rid of. i hope he will.

..so that's why love, if you just give me one misscall or send me one little message, i'll consider to forgive and forget for this time again. i'll come back. oh i wish his love is HUGE enough to do this.

aaaahh~

ternyata gw masih belum sehat2 juga. kemarin hidung sebelah kiri mengeluarkan darah terus, dan sekarang 22nya -____-;;

what should i do???

masih gak napsu makan pula, padahal hesti mau traktir hanamasa... siyal!

aaahhh sutralah.

gw harus tidur, kalo nggak nanti bodyguard2 saya marah2 lagi LOL!

special thanks to the bodyguards :

my bebi chibot for his support, words and companion to face my depression and sorrowful days. thanks for all the 'date' beb! ^^

my vendahoney and hestybaby for their love, time, hugs, aspirin (plus tips how to do suicide with aspirin by venda LOL! hesti : makan satu aja chik! buat tenang aja. venda : *sambil meluk* jangan, 3 aja biar tidur lama. hesti : VENDA!! --------- kemarin; venda: chik makan 10 aja aspirinnya HAHAHA~ hesti: VENDA, gw gak mau tau yah, gw ga mau jadi evidence! XDD LOVE YOU GUYS!), Tips how to do suicides dari gedung tinggi XDDD, EVERYTHING which means LOADS for me. thanks for making me laugh yesterday too lovelies~! and NO, i'm not that stoopid to die useless like that XD beside, i don't want to die hurt LOL!

my sisters and brother for the support, love and for the eagerness to keep my pride from being thorn by bitches who likes to 'mengumbar aib sendiri' ^^

for Shintasayang and Popodarling for the support and love~ shinta, mari kita perangi depresi kita sama2 LOL!

and last,

for my MOM...for accompany me through these days, the hugs, to share the depression, the tears (ternyata, gw gak makan 3 hari ini, my mom juga ikutan gak makan XD aaawww~). love you mom, you're the best!

I LOVE YOU ALL!!

i hope i will see the rainbow after this hard rain sooner ^^

my broken heart tells it all

2008-12-18T02:24:00.005+07:00

....

it's been like hell for these two days.

i'm not eating nor drink. i had a fever.

it's all because of my heart that's broken into pieces.

soo...yep.

i found out that my perfect boyfriend cheat on me ^^

and now, his new girlfriend keep telling me that my boyfriend said me and him are friends

and all the garbage.

LOL!

but OF COURSE i don't believe her.

i've known my boyfriend for 9 years tho.

(indo mode on)

pertamanya gw kesel, dan sakit banget.

tapi setelah denger apa yang diomongin cewe itu haha

gw sadar akan sesuatu, hmmm she's just want to break us apart dan claim my boyfriend.

LOL!

gw sadar,

setelah ngobrol sama ceweknya dan dia ngomong all the bullshit (yep, handphonenya ditahan sicewek) gw gak boleh mundur! damn! itu artinya gw kalah XD dan emang gw ga niat mundur kok

whatever happen gw harus tetep support dia dan give him love that he needs.

gw ngerti sih, dia disana sendirian, stressful environment dan dia bukan orang yang bisa hidup sendiri. so saat si cewek menyerahkan dirinya dan dia ngerasa butuh tempat curhat, terjadilah hubungan saling membutuhkan XD

that's my fault i think. i'm not there.

yah yang lucunya yah, si cewe ini bilang kalo my boyfriend bilang ke dia kalo gw sama dia gak ada komitmen, cuma temen aja, tapi dia sayang hahaha~ dan katanya si cewe ke gw, gw jangan maksa2 pacar gw itu untuk tunangan kalo dia gak mau HAHAHAHA~

lucu banget!

sutralah!

i'm better now. i get my optimist thought back ^^

so i'll support him no matter what.

BUT STILL, i'll move on. get a real and better life.

buat hasil akhirnya gw serahin ke Allah aja~ gw ikhlas kok. yang penting kan udah berusaha~ ^^

mungkin sekarang mata si lelaki saya sedang ditutup, makanya i keep on praying that he'll open his eyes~ ^^ malaikat juga tau, siapa yang jadi juaranya XDDDDDDDDDD~

aahhh~ another song for my love~!

The Pogues - Love you till the end

I just want to see you
When youre all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I cant escape
I love you till the end

I just want to tell you nothing
You dont want to hear
All I want is for you to say
Why dont you just take me
Where Ive never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath
I love you till the end

I just want to be there
When were caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
I'm lost for words dont tell me
All I can say
I love you till the end

However, i believe our love is true love. soulmate will never be apart.

i'll still wait here~

with heart that's too broken,

miss.fabs!

2008-12-18T02:17:00.001+07:00

dec 10, '08

my weak days~

mellow lagi..
feelin' blue lagi~
haha~

ih ga gw banget emang..atau gw banget?
sedih mulu, mellow mulu? XD

it's hard to look cheerful everytime..
tho in fact, i'm dying inside.

looks like today is my weakiest day for the weeks of suffer.
i'm not used to cry anymore since i dont know when..but the tears came out easily now..
my heart feel soooo heavy it seems like i don't have anymore power to stand.

what am i supposed to do then?

where's the certain someone who give the promises to always be there whenever i need a shoulder or just an ear to listen.

after all, it's just another promises. yet i always believe in.

i really want to give up..so much it's hurt.
even mom's said to just live my life and move on.
[she seems to dissapointed tho. and she said nothing when i asked her to stop hoping the hopeless hope~ (LOL!)]

but yet i still can't.

maybe i just need to get away from everything.
i'll found the way out soon then.
as for now, i'll prepare everything ^^

and maybe, this would be my greatest regret OR maybe not. i don't know, and i don't want to think about it just yet ^^
let it flow lah~ whatever the outcome, i'll live with it~

i better put my optimistic mode to the fullest.
finishing my every-delayed-thing,
get a new well-paid and promising job,
find the new Me...the tough, mature and more optimistic one~
hah!
and then maybe, i'll get my happiness in the end.
another maybe,
maybe, if i could come out from my shell ... i will see the world clearly~

^
^
waaaaa~~ looks like i already listed my 2009's resolutions! LOL!

OH! i found this quote, and it's quite makes me beam with hopes,

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us... -Hellen Keller"

^
yah my door of happiness belum ketutup banget sih kyaknya, it still have its hope for me ... but like mom suddenly said, "don't believe in the theory only" ----
haha~ saya gak maju2 karna nengok ke belakang terus 8DD~

my life's full with theory~ theory~ theory~ promises~ promises~ promises~

LOL~!

dec 11, 08

another blue moment..

hhhh~

i'm feelin' no good.
my heart beats crazily, for no reason~
i feel so damn nervous(?), sad, insecure...and all

the negatives..
and my thoughts goes to one certain person.

before now, kayaknya gw pernah bilang deh..
kalo kadang apa yang gw rasain itu ada hubungannya

sama sipacar.
maksudnya, kalo perasaan gw ga enak dan kepikiran

dia mulu itu biasanya ada something sama dia. kayak

waktu dia lagi down banget, eh tiba2 aja dong

perasaan gw gak enak padahal gw gak tau...
begitu ditanya ke dia, bener aja dia lagi down ataw

something happen.

percaya gak percaya sih yang kayak begini. tapi ini

udah berkali2 terjadi...

biasanya juga kalo gw mellow banget itu artinya gw

lagi PMS, tapi kali ini nggak tuh...

aduh insecure banget...

duluuu...gw selalu bilang, "ih gpp lah kalo dia ada

pacar lagi, namanya juga masih muda..biar seneng2

dulu.."
tapi sekarang2 ini, kok pikiran itu gak seoptimis

dulu ya...
jadi bikin gw mikir ulang, "apa iya gw bakal nerima

kalo dia have another fling~"
well i dunno, masalah umur ngaruh gak sih? XDD

susah juga ternyata kalo having Long Distance

Relationship with not enough communication.
it's not entirely my fault tho, i'm trying already.

duh, capek juga sih ya kalo pacaran sendirian XDDD~
yang usaha pertahanin cuma satu orang..
kira2 bakal berhasil gak yah?

ya ampuuunn~ gw tuh ngeluh mulu yah hahaha~
selalu mikir negatif kayak gini..
tapi defense gw sih,
'yah what kind of feeling should i feel, when

there's no real talk between us? ga ada usaha dari

dia untuk keep it save with communicating, neither

do in my side which caused by too much pride LOL!'
^
OMG! itu mah salah dua2nya XD

defense gw lagi :
"siapa yang ga males kalo smsnya jaraaaaaaang banget

dibales, pdhl kan bisa pinjem dl yah 8D, dan telpon

juga -meski udah dijadwalin- dilupa2in. atau bahkan,

gak diangkat? damn. even untuk bilang i love you too

aja nggak XDDD (emg smsnya siapa yg baca yah XDDD)

kayaknya ga ada niat dari dia untuk mempertahankan."

he's too concieted. he thinks that because of our

almost 9 years together, there's no need to do

things what couple do, because he thinks, to just

know that he loves me and vice versa is more than

enough.

yaaaaaaahhhh XDDDDDDDD
lucu banget yah sipacar XD pengen cubit pipinya pake

gunting deh XDD
kalo dia udah ngeluarin kata2nya yang gitu yah, udah

deh the talk ended. gw pun gak bisa berkata apa2

lagi, ehm even i always tried tapi hasilnya sama

aja, he won the fight! 8D my pacar RULES! LOL~!

tapi kalo dipikir2 lagi, kasian dia...
down banget disana, butuh support. makanya gw

dilema, mau marah tapi kasian dia takut kenapa2 tapi

kalo diem aja yah makan hati XDDDD
aneh ah.

oh iya, some of you may think that i'm too open

about my life XDDD
people can read me now XDDD
DUN!DUN!DUN!----attention-seeker LOL!

^
bukan maksud sih, tapi yah begini deh cara gw

ngelepasin apa yang jadi beban hati cieeeehhh XDDD
dengan nulis apa yang gw rasain, kayaknya perasaan

sedikit lega.

makanya i need this blog very very much..
Hell with what people's judge for what i wrote LOL!
mau baca soookkk, nggak juga gpp 8D
ih egois yah? hahaha~

aduh seriously, gw tau salah satu bakal baca ni

entry dan bakal marah sama gw, agak ngeri gw hahaha~
so sorry babies, tapi ini yang gw rasain.
so so so sorry!

eh eh tapi spam2 ga jelas diShoutBox bikin gw ga

comfortable nih jadi bikin males liat blog dr kmrn2,

ada yang tau gimana ngehandlenya gak?
ih mau nimpuk rasanya...

halah2..
ngomongnya jadi ngalur ngidul XDDD~
yasuw lah, mau lanjut dengerin lagu2 mellow

mematikan lagi (OhmygloriousGOD! XD)

BYE!
miss.fabs (yang butuh kasih sayang --- HAHAHAHA,

najis!)

i'm feelin' so blue~

2008-11-26T22:40:00.003+07:00

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i'm feeling so blue today...huhu...

lonely~ need a warm hug T___T

i feel unwanted. unneeded. neglected. and all the negatives..

aaaahhh~ not healthy~~ not healthy~~~

pengen ketemu pacar..pengen ditelpon...pengen denger suaranya huhuhu~

mellow abis deh gw hihihi~

aaahh~ udah hari baru nih~ harusnya menatap hari yang baru harus dengan pikiran yang lebih positif...

tadi malem abis ber-mellow2 soal si pacar...

tapi abis sholat tadi, tiba2 pikiran kembali menjadi positif banget,

hehe~ ^^

hesti bilang gw selalu punya theme song disegala suasana LOL~

hmmm tapi mungkin bener juga yah ^^

kayak tadi malem, pas mellow2nya...masa yah tiba2 aja winamp play lagu

"sometimes love just ain't enough"~~~ iiiih pas banget ama suasana hati~

itu salah satu lagu yang mau banget gw teriakin depan muka si pacar LOL~ (dengan lembut yah hahaha boong banget)

pas banget banget banget ama yg lagi gw rasain sekarang...

jadi pengen ngasi liriknya deh ^^,

wait a moment..

Patti Smith - Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

No, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No

(kyaknya udah pernah gw post deh ni lagu ;p)

huhu makin mellow T______T

sama satu lagi lagu yang anehnya kemarin ini paling sering replay di mp4 gw...kan dishuffle tuh~

Ne-Yo Mad

She's starin' at me
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Mmmmmm
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
Ohhh
And now is i'm yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me
All that that means
is neither of us is listening
[and what's even worse]
that we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
But we wont let it go for nothin'
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
when your constantly accusing.
[askin' questions like you've already known]
We're fighting this war, baby
when both of us are losing.
[This ain't the way that love is supposed to go].

Whoahhhh.....
[what happened to workin' it out]
We've fall into this place
where you ain't backin' down and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now...

It's all for..

Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
but we won't let it go for
nothin'...
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
[perfect, perfect, ohh ohh]
and just how good it's gonna be
we can fuss and we can fightlong as everythings allright between us...
before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

yah ngertilah ya apa maksud dari yang gw color bold'in~ hihi~

hhhh~

so much for being in love...

sometimes it's hurt, sometimes it's heaven on earth...

but somewhat, i'll still be grateful for what i had..

for i have my very best friend and soulmate in my life..

through the better and worse, i'll still love him, no matter what ^^

bener kata si abang mail, mungkin ini cuma ujian aja~ HARUS KUAT!! ^^,

masa pacaran mau senengnya aja haha~

mudah2an setelah ini ada hikmahnya~ those sacred words will finally reach my ear maybe? hhihi~ i so very hope so...at least it'll worth of my 8 years and 8 months hihi~

minta doanya juga ya semuanya ^^,

so, maybe ini cuma salah satu kekurangan dia yang harus gw tolerir...forgotful and ignorance..

haha~ kayak saya nggak aja...saya juga kan banyak kekurangannya hihi

makanya, saya akan berusaha to live with it...^^,

imperfect makes perfect sometimes ^.~

aaahh~

semoga dia gak apa2 disana...dan semoga hidupnya senang2 aja, ga banyak susahnya~

i always pray for you aa~

maaf dipostan bawah aku minta terlalu banyak padahal udah bilang gak mau menuntut.

sekarang mah terserah aa aja~ mau gimananya ^^

.....

hhhhh~

makin kangen T____T

udah deh semakin mellow saja saya hahahaha~

belom tidur nih...mau tidur dulu sebentar trus siang jalan kerja deh hihihi~

sumpah santai banget kerja gw hahaha....

menurut lo????? 8DDDD

btw2 mau ngepost chat jibang gw sama bebi kemaren malem, soal rumornya changmin 8D

chika_takeuchi_go: LOL~
chika_takeuchi_go: beb beb
chika_takeuchi_go: iya ni i baca
hp_gnc: baca apaan???
chika_takeuchi_go: tnyt si jaemin masuk kmr mandi cewe gr2 pintunya gak bs dikunci ya yg wc cowoknya
hp_gnc: gw lg nunggu loadingan hehehe..
hp_gnc: nah itu yg gw bc td siang...
hp_gnc: ktnya si jj yg dorong tu cewe...
hp_gnc: yah gw ga ngarti mana yg bnr...
chika_takeuchi_go: iyahhh~
hp_gnc: jd asal mrk ga pp is okay lah...
hp_gnc: tp yg bikin gw ketawa...
chika_takeuchi_go: trus krn si antis takut ama jeje jadinya min yg dikenain,,,minnya nangis ya katanya pas didalem
hp_gnc: iyah itu yg bikin gw ketawa...
hp_gnc: si antis takut ma jj!!! whuahahaha...
chika_takeuchi_go: HAHAHAHAHA~
chika_takeuchi_go: iyaakkk~
chika_takeuchi_go: mungkin galak bgt kali ya pas nguasir
hp_gnc: padahal klo sangar mah bisa ketebak yah yg sangar si cm... tp pas gw baca tu brita si antis takut ma jj.. brarti si jj galak bgt yah??? hahahaha....
chika_takeuchi_go: iyah kayaknya HAHAHA
hp_gnc: masih ga masuk ke bayangan gw jj sangar!!!
chika_takeuchi_go: mungkin mrk sempet ngapain min kali di wc, trus jejenya marah...kan dia protektif ama temennya
chika_takeuchi_go: >.> sok kenal bgt
chika_takeuchi_go: gw si kebayang bgt XDDD
hp_gnc: iyah kali yak... digrepe2 =))
chika_takeuchi_go: =))
chika_takeuchi_go: mawu dooong grepe miiinnn
chika_takeuchi_go: hihihihihihihihihihihi
hp_gnc: samaaaaaaaaa
chika_takeuchi_go: ato mungkin yg real tuh JAEMIN...
chika_takeuchi_go: trus jejenya lg horny trus diganggu ama tu 2 cewe
hp_gnc: whuoooooo....
chika_takeuchi_go: HAHAHAHAHA
chika_takeuchi_go: makanya marah bgt
chika_takeuchi_go: =))=))=))
hp_gnc: weitzzz klo real jaemin seneng dah hahaha...
hp_gnc: sempet gitu lg horny dikjr2 fans???
hp_gnc: msk wc cewe pula???
chika_takeuchi_go: JANGAAAANNN it SHOULD no scratch that, it MUST be yunjae~~!!!
chika_takeuchi_go: hahaha
chika_takeuchi_go: mungkin slingkuh dr yuno
chika_takeuchi_go: XDDDDDDDD
chika_takeuchi_go: makanya cm itu kesempatan yg ada
chika_takeuchi_go: XD
hp_gnc: =))
hp_gnc: brarti si jj pervet bgt yak...
chika_takeuchi_go: bangettt~~
chika_takeuchi_go: mawuuu dipervert ama jejeee~ o__O
chika_takeuchi_go: eh eh beb
chika_takeuchi_go: i jd inget~
chika_takeuchi_go: jeje slalu blg kan, dia suka cewe yg jarinya bagus?
chika_takeuchi_go: jangan2 dia BOTTOM~
chika_takeuchi_go: makanya suka JARI
chika_takeuchi_go: HAHAHAHAHAHHA
chika_takeuchi_go: pervert banget guaaaaa najeeezzzz
hp_gnc: =))=))=))
hp_gnc: Asumsi lo yah GILA!!!
chika_takeuchi_go: hahahahaha~

LOL~ jibang abisssss~~~~!!!

kapan yah ngomongin jeje gak h***y? XDDDD~ superpervert! 8DDD

but at least it made me smile, talking to you bebiii~

sankyu~ i love you!

yasuda~

bener2 harus tidur~

LOL!

bantuin doa semoga pacarku pada akhirnya membaca blog ini dan menelponku ya temans ^.~

Let's pray hard. yeah.

so, enough for today. imma gonna fly fly high~

chaaaaawww! muaaahh!!

another new day~

2008-11-25T06:43:00.003+07:00

lalalala~

aku lagi~ siapa?

yang punya blog dooong! masa Paris Hilton~ Alicia Silverstone lah! ahuahauua~ (masi jaman ya? 8D)

setelah tidur semaleman (yang sebenernya ketiduran XD) aku memutuskan untuk mem'private' isi Love Letter dibawah AHUAHUAAHUA~ (ga ngaruh si, masi dsana jg ;D)

setelah dipikir2 takutnya orang kan punya persepsi masing2 yah~ jadi takut kayak i'm offending my own boyfriend~ trus pada nyangkanya, ih pacarnya jahat gak baik gituuuhh~so...hehe~

padahal kan dia orang baik~ baik bangettt ^^ and cute~ ahuahuhaa~

aaahhh mau main FB lagi ah hihihi~ *norak*

mau bales komennya,

hestong : emberrr beb~ lu kan tau gw banyak omong ahuhauhau~ makanya gak mungkin banget ngomong langsung, nanti malah berantem, trus menimbulkan aura negatif ke gw trus ga bisa nikmatin hidup sebagai 'single fighter' lagi deh ahuahuah

bang mail : iya yah huhu~ yes aku harus sabar~ YAK! PIGHTING!! makasi mail-kun ^^

Oh my gracious GOD!!!

2008-11-22T05:39:00.003+07:00

holly cheese cake!!!!

This.is.the.hottest.fancam ever!! hakshaks~!!

OMG!! mypapinya anakku buka-bukaan dipublik!! hakshaks~!

hyperventilated saya!! KYAAA~ leher! leheerr~!! saya kan leher fetish!! ZOMG!!

pasti bang yuno langsung turn on! OMG! SEXY!!

jadi kebayang~ huhu~ mypapi+mic = isdet!

pantes si abang lagi doyan2nya peyuk2 sama touching2 mypapi!

holly.muffin! *die.happily*

seriously, bahasa dan panggilan yang gw pake norak2 abis yah HAHAHA~ bodo ah, ini kan blog gw~ kebebasan mengapresiasikan diri lah...hihi~~

yang baca trus gak suka, boleh ngatain dibelakang, asal jangan kedengeran gw~ ahuhauhaua~

huaaaa~ pengen ke Heaven!!!! pengeeeennnnn~~~~ yuk yuk yukkk~

pics SPAM!!! 8DDD

2008-11-22T04:04:00.003+07:00

Pikchaaaaa kamiiiinnnnn~!!!

.mi familia.

special present for my special pacar yang katanya kangen banget sama keluarga sini ^^

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papachan sangat kuyus disini~ sudah ga cucok dipanggil ndut lagi hihi~

and mamski complained so much ama perutnya disini~ hihi~ mamski, udah ndut ya ndut ajah hihi...

my precious family~ i love you FULL!!! XDDDD

saya dan baju keramat yang susah dapetnya~

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hihi~ udah dikanan loh gantungannya fufufu~

and now, i'm officially become one of the S.Psi without proper License yet hihi (makanya mbak, revisi cepetan XDDD)

saya dan warna hijau 8D

(airport's toilet, anter papachan pindah ke NTB huhu~ sedih )

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ntah ada apa dengan saya dan warna hijau sekarang2 ini~ hampir smua yang baru dibeli warna hijau hihi~ what happen with pinkish????

my dorkiest creature i ever found in the planet nyahahhaa~

my beloved-dorky-fuckable ~~boyfriend~~ soulmate

big boobs adalah asetnya~ hayo atuh diobral ^^

hoooo...me love boobs!! ~~NOT!~~

and Lastly, but never the least...

Mypapinya anak-anakku~ 8DDDD

penyumbang paling besar untuk anak-anakku huahuhaua~

karna dia rajin~ rajin apa??? hayoooo....hihihihi~

ih lagi megang mic 2~ dia emang suka karaokean -in both senses? 8DDDD-

jago ngocok~ ngocok kartu UNO~ huhauhauha~

Love him to death!!

udah subuh loh~

seriusan saya gak tidur huhauhauhua~

mudah2an ngajar gak sambil nguap mulu kayak biasanya....

aku sing cabut dulu yo~

capek juga cuma posting ga penting gini hihihi~

Piss Love en G4UL ah!

friday night~ after hour~~

2008-11-22T00:42:00.002+07:00

Yay! another pumpin' friday night~~ fufufufu~

well not too pumpin' coz we lacked our FG last night nyahemmm~

ga enakkkk~ kurang seruuuu ga rameee~

gak ada mas arief juga, our additional member hihi~

jadi tadi cuma ada gw, si bebi sama our honourable guest, mail~~ hahahaha

seru jugalah~ dan lagi2 ber UNO ria munyahaha~

sialnya si mail mengeluarkan 'cerita seru'nya pas mau pulang HAAAAAAAAAA! sial kaw!!

heuheuhue~ so far, seruu~ besok2 main lagi yaaaa~~~ hhihihi tapi please, jangan mesen ThaiTea~ karna gw gak bisa minta huhuhuhuh~

ohiya ceritanya kan mau berlomba2 memposting kebodohannya si bebi yah~ tapi ehmmm...besok aja yahhh hihihi~ biasa, uda selupa lupanya 8DD

hhhhaaaaa~~

i have new obsessions~!! huuhuhuu~~

aku mawu BOOTS! and NDS!!! oh please~ someone~!! beliin dooongg~~

tadinya mau BAG juga, tapi udah ada yang janji mau beliin minggu depan~ YAY!

katanya mah hadiah lulusan hihihi~

oh my favorite-sex-deprived-boy-friend chibot chan~!!! AHUAHUAHAU~ i loph you more and more my darling~ ahuhauhuaha~~ asal gak minta sharingan gw aja ama si Aa hahaha~

haaaa~ i really crave for one BOOTS~~ don't have any so i want ONE~!! huhu~

and NDS, that was so last year but but i still don't have it~

terlalu boros sehingga tak dapat membeli huhuhuhu mauuuuuuuu~~~~

anyway, di TI ada yang menjual Mirotic versi C tinggal 1! aku mawuuuuu~!! mudah2an masih bisa nih huhuhu~ doakan teman2!!!!

haaaaaaaaaaa~

makin kangen pacar~!!

tadi denger gosip katanya dia lagi dikejar2 cewek manado huhuhu~

kudu konfirm nih besok, kan mau ngumpul tuh ama chibot dan dua anak kecil adek2nya si pacar huahuahua~ abis masa katanya tuh gosip dari gw!! dechan~!!! kamuuuuhhh!!!

aaahhh~ besok pasti seru~! karaokean gretong! paling suka~ gratisan~~ hahaha~ udah lama ga ngumpul!! senangnyaaaa~~

btw, gw gak tau nih soal si pacar dikejar2 cewek manado,

yang gw tau, sipacar ngadu kalo dia dijodohin sama berbagai macam wanita cantik dan seksi oleh si omnya huihuihui~ salah satunya, Noni Sul-Ut!!! dammit! gimana bisa bersaing ama yang beginian haha~ parah~~

kalo sipacar tergoda mah bukan salahnya dia juga...itu bisa berarti gw bukan pacar yang baik, karna gak bisa ngejaga pacarnya hihi~ dan ditambah berarti udah takdir 8DDD~

yeeeeee~~ lagian emang mbak ursulanya mau ama dia haha~ afgan jadi2an gitu juga~ tapi tetep, dia pacarku yang paling cakep sedunia~ (pendapat ini akan dengan pastinya berubah begitu jaejoong didepan mata gw XDDDDDDD)

ah ah...gw jadi inget tadi sempet buka TI dan ada berita soal artikel tentang Agnes yang ditaro di Asian Fanatic~ wuiiih keren....dan, ada nih kata2nya dia yang gw demen banget...oke banget...iya banget...

ini nih,

when asked about the ideal partner, she has her own explanation. “We are all the broken people. And the spouse is someone who can make us the whole or complete. But to find this person, we have to understand ourselves first and what we need in life,”she states. (ini yang sedang saya coba lakukan, dan so far it works...^^)

“In a matter of partner, all that I need is someone who’s compatible with me in every aspect of life; material, emotionally, and etc. Someone who can lift me up in a higher place!” (i have MINE i told you~ ahhhh~ and i couldn't ask for more!!)

ih ih setuju banget Agmonnnn!!! makin sukaaaa ma lo gw!! haiyaaaa~ kukukukukkkk~

ah nways~

i want BOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!

huhuhuhu~

udahaaannn~ besok pagi-pagi ngajar juga~ HAHAHA~ orang gila!!

apa ga usah tidur ya? hmmmm~

Nooooooo!!!!

okeh temans~ i'm out yah ^^

lotta LOVE to all of darlings

MUAAAACCCHHHHH!!!!!

hihi~ pacarku lucu~

2008-11-21T10:01:00.004+07:00

yayaya~

tadi subuh sudah kukonfirm apa panggilan sipacar buat gw sebelum 'inta' hihihi~

trus jawabannya adalah....'chocolove'!!! aaahahahaha~ baru menyadari kalo panggilan ini lucu sekali~~ aaawww~ pacarku cute bangeeeeeettt *peluk brutal* rada sedikit aneh yah? hahaha~ tapi lucuuuuu~~ pantes yah kalo dia manggil tengah orang, orang-orang pada nengok ngeliatin ahahaha....ya ampuuunnnn lucu banget sih pacar~~ kangen bangettttt~~ huhu~

ga nyangka gw uda pernah ninggalin dia karna nyerah sama keadaan huhu~ tapi akhirnya balik lagi hahaha~ (Aa, nangis mana bisa ngembaliin pacarr~~ kasih Lexus kek~ atau berlian~ pasti balik ahuahuhau)...balikannya juga atas paksaan si mama dan rayuan Ua'nya si pacar...aneh ya..

but at least kita berdua jadi sadar kalo we ARE meant to be together~ (apa gwnya yah yang akhirnya sadar 8D)....dari duluuuuu banget...mau gimana pun masalahnya, kecil atau besar, tapi tetep aja ga bisa pisah....

ohiya salah satunya ya waktu kuliah dulu, ceritanya mau pisah nih....udah berapa hariii gitu gak ada saling ngehubungin atau ketemu, gwnya menghindar, kabur2an (secara satu kampus ya)....eeeeeehhhh ketemu lagi dong gak sengaja...dan seperti biasa, sipacar kayak gak ada masalah langsung nempel2 lagi huhuhu~

sampe pernah gw nyeletuk gini, "gila yah, mau lari kemanapun ketemunya lo lagi lo lagi"...haha...makanya jangan lari 8DDD

awal tahun kemaren, waktu bener2 pisah, gw sempet ngerasa itu keputusan terbaik....tapi setelah beberapa bulan, malah nyokap yang gak tahan...nangis2 kangen sipacar, bilang kasian sama dia...dan nenek gw ama tante gw ikutan nangis doong pas tau gw putus haha~ segitu sayangnya ya mereka... sebenernya juga yang pacaran siapa ya? 8DD yah akhirnya gw balik lagi deh, karna nyokap bilang..."kamu sabar aja, orang itu pasti berubah kok, gak selamanya dia bakal kayak gitu (males manja maksudnya 8DD)" trus nyokap juga sempet nyeletuk syarat emosi, "udah ah, pokoknya mama maunya dia aja. gak mau yang lain. udah kamu balikan sana..pokoknya mama gak mau yang lainnya.." hhhhh~ si mama~ apa kawinin aja ya dia ama sipacar? 8DD

itu semua bikin gw mikir sih, takut juga gak ngikutin kata orang tua...nanti kualat~ lagian gw yakin kok pilihan nyokap pasti terbaik ^^ lagian yah ada lagi yang bikin pertimbangan....gw sempet mikir,

"loh, waktu 2 bulan pacaran aja kita berdua udah dihadapin masalah, yang kalo menurut gw bahkan bisa bikin bubar tunangan yang seminggu lagi mau merit, dan gw bisa bertahan (meski ini masih bikin gw mikir, kok bisa?) sampe selama ini...kenapa cuma masalah 'ketidak-seriusan dalam hidup' yang notabene bisa diubah aja gw nyerah ya~"

akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk fighting back the happiness i've left ^^ which is lead to si pacar mengambil keputusan brutal pertama seumur hidupnya buat merantau ke Manado...huhuhu~ hope we can make it ya baby~~

cita-cita pengen bener2 ngewujudin isi dari lagu kebangsaannya kita berdua, You're Still The One - Shania Twain.....so far sih, you always my one...and only ^^ and we still together, going strong HAHA~ sappy abisss..

lagi Love mode on banget ya gw, dari kemaren ngomongin pacaaaaarrr mulu hahaha~ obodo ah, blog gw ini 8DDD

duh jadi bingung mau ngomong apa lagi...mellow abis~~ haha~ kangennnn~~

hmmm....for you guys, my pals my darlings~~ i hope you'll find your soulmate, your one and only...because believe me it's worth the universe ^^ i have mine already~ and i can't describe the feeling, it's as hard as describing what the air means to the nature.

pacarku yang cutteee sangaaaaatttt~ baru inget kita punya mimpi punya rumah dipinggir pantai~~ so aku memutuskan kita tinggal di Manado ajaaahhhh~~~~!! supaya bisa jalan2 dipinggir pantai terus terus pengen teriak ke laut, "I LOVE THIS DORKY MAN BESIDE ME SOOOO VERY VERY MUCH!!" ihihihihi~ hopelessly romantic bitch bgt gw~~

udah ah udah....terlalu banyak ngomong....kudu berangkat kerja, cari uang buat liburan awal tahun depan ^^ YAY!

bye all my darls!!!! here, i send you many many love from my deepest heart~!

MUAAAAHHHHH~!!!!

camiomiooow~

2008-11-20T04:12:00.006+07:00

machaaaa~!!

new layout evrybodyyy~~~ how's it?? eh? eh?

i love this skin tho~ soo uhm refreshing? 8D yeah~

i decided to change this for some reasons hehe..hope it turns out nice ^_^

hmmm....it's 5.22 at the moment, and i'm not sleepin' yet nyuhuu!

been so excited to download dongbang's videos haha~ suda lama ber low profile~

ternyata ketinggalan 150 pages disoompi bo! ajegilee~ ngos2an aye catch up nyah =___=;

well anyway, mau cerita yesterday ah...

kemaren tuh, diatas bis pas mau jalan ngajar tiba2 aja pikiran gw melayang ke masa SMA LOL~ nostalgia lah gitu...nginget2 kejadian duluu...tadinya mau langsung post right away, but the i-connection sucked big butt -___-" maklumlah, indonesia tanah airku heuheu uda gitu ujan pula~ makin menjadi2 huahuaha~

okeh back to topic, jadi tiba2 aja gw inget sama temen gw yang namanya Y & S, dulu mereka nih couple, yah sampe 3 tahun yang lalu kali yah, hmmm gak jelas juga...denger2 suka brokeback-an sih alias putus-nyambung nyehehehe~ so anyway, mereka ini bisa dibilang cupidnya gw sama pacar deh...secara kalo gak ada couple ini yah mungkin gw gak sama pacar dari dulu (entah ini anugrah apa musibah 8D kidding dadar gulingkuh!) salah satu pasangan fenomenal pas jamannya SMA dulu, jadiannya 2 bulan sebelum gw dan pacar~ fenomena anak2 IPA2 yang memacari cewek2 kelas 2 huahuahuahua~ sungguh tak gaul 8DD OOT lagi yah...

okay so the real topic is, gw inget kejadian pas lagi main kerumah Y malem2 gitu, ehm gak malem bgt sih...rumahnya aga sepi, karna ortunya lagi keluar...trus, kan waktu itu rumahnya tuh emang nyatu ama neneknya, jadi dia ada ruangan sendiri untuk keluarganya...trus2 waktu itu gw sama si pacar dan Y sama pacarnya juga huahuahuahua gw tau kalian pasti nyangka yang nggak2 deh...eh? nggak?? ooh okay lalalala~

jadi ceritanya nih udah larut2 gitulah, rencananya gw mau nginep tapi akhirnya gak jadi, karna yah kuberitahu, akyu sangat innocent dan takut diomelin mama kalo nginep haha~ nah ceritanya nih ada kasur adeknya Y kan tuh ya buat nonton TV, gw sama pacar disitu (HAHA~ gak ngapa2in, inget gw innocent *geol2*) ngerandom bedua, kadang gosip haha...trus-trus ko sepi yah, trus gw nengok, eh gak berapa meter dari gw si Y ama S duduk hadap2an...trus tiba2~ muka gw ditutup sama sipacar, trus digusel2 palanya...trus gw bilang,

gw : ih ih, bla (dulu manggilnya choebla 8DD) apaan sih, kan mau ngintipin~

pcr : .... (lupa dia ngomong apa)

^ confo ga informatif

trus gak lama gw ngintip lagi dan untuk pertama kalinya dong gw menyaksikan the real kissing scene man!!! huhauhuahuahau (i know ini terkesan membuka aib banget...but yeah~ hehehe)

dan celetukan gw dlm hati adalah, "haaa? oh jadi gitu yah hihihi"

hahaha~ dan kayaknya, gw baru aja menjadi saksi their first kiss deh lalalala~ atau nggak yah? dunno~ yang pasti besok paginya gw berjaya menteasing si Y disekolah hahaha~

hmmm, gw sama pacar? well nothing happen, cuma dipeluk2 ajah, gw pikir juga bakalan ada something eeehhhh taunya pacarku yang baik itu sangat sangat menghargai gw ^^ meskipun terlihat sekali dia agak 'turn on' waktu itu nyahahaha~

well at least he got my first peck, itu juga hasil mencuri 8DDDD~ or not? ohiya baru inget, first peck gw kan waktu umur 2 tahun sama yang namanya Sandy di Lampung HAHAHA~ orang tua2 kami yang kurang kerjaan bahkan sempet2nya mengabadikan pake foto~ hahaha

^ waktu pas 'kecurian' itu yah, kebetulan pas banget bdaynya mantan gw hahaha~ trus dalem hati gw malah bilang, "ya ampuun skrg kan tanggal 4 ... yah, waaa ulang tahunnya si 'anu', gw malah disini...hhhh~ ya ampuunn dikicuu~ dosa gak yah?" hahaha~ oon banget~

gara-gara keingetan kejadian ini gw jadi senyum2 gejeh di bis hahaha~ kebayang dulu gw masih begoooo banget...untung dapet pacar baek, kalo nggak mah wuidiiiihhh~

hahaha~ nih cerita paling 'open' soal gw yang gw publikasiin hahaha~

Well that was hmmm 8 years ago so~ hehe...

buat yang baca sih terserah aja mau nilainya gimana ^^ yah, mudah2an pada open minded haha~

ah iya, si pacar waktu SMA kan di panggilnya choebla yah, singkatan dari 'culun banyak laga' haha~ dan gw kenalnya juga choebla, bukan pandu...dan pas pacaran juga jadi manggilnya choebla tapi si pacar ternyata agak terganggu~ so setelah beberapa bulan pacaran terjadilah pembicaraan seperti ini :

pcr : chika, manggilnya jangan choebla dong~

gw : hah? emangnye kenape?? (betawinye masi sedep bgt 8DDD)

pcr : yah choebla kan buat temen-temen~

gw : susaaaahhh~ kenalnya kan emang choebla~

pcr : *slight pouting*

gw : hmmm apa dong yah?

pcr : dudung kek, pandu kek...

gw : apa 'Ndu ajah??? hahahaha~ *mantannya dia manggilnya ndu XDDD*

pcr : *melirik malas*

gw : *nyeletuk segala macem nama yang aneh*

akhirnya diputuskanlah untuk memanggil 'Aa' secara yah dirumahnya, tetangga2nya, sodara2nya semua manggil dia Aa, bahkan gw curiga jangan-jangan ada yang gak tau nama aslinya dia lagi saking manggilnya Aa2 ajah haha~

so, sampe sekarang manggilnya Aa~

ehm dia? dia suka manggil Babe, trus gw bilang "bla, jangan manggil babe napa sih...emang chika babi apah~" haha~ (buat yang masih inget, ada film babi2 kreatip yang judulnya Babe) so dia manggil apa yah? lupaa~ haha~ Aa, kalo baca ingetin yah ^^ soalnya ketutup ama Inta~ haha~

aku jarang yah manggil Anta, kebiasa manggil Aa haha~

Panggillan baru sekarang! dorkyface!! hahaha~

hhhhh~ jadi kangennnn~~~

Aa, kalo baca, sms aku yah~ meskipun you said this is the only way we can keep in touch (yeah, we don't phone or messaging each other~) but at least let me know that you read yah dork ^^

wew~ udah jam 6, kayaknya kudu tidur nih ^^

oh iya, bales komen mail dulu~

bang issal, iyah ketawa mulu yah haha~ terlalu cheerful haha....yah, that's me ^^ suka over excited~ iyaaahhh saya open minded terhadap gay ^^ malah adoring them HAHA~ yeeee~ temen lu juga tuh il haha~ si hestong... but thanks for reading ^^ *bows* traktiraaaannn! haha~

okay i'm off!

PS : postingan gw random banget, mau baca silahkan nggak juga yo wess ^^ hahaha~ piss lah! muah muah!

2008-11-18T14:34:00.003+07:00

Wow! It's been so million years i don't write here nyahaha..
Keinginan si writing daily post but hhh can't help that i'm too lazy..
Okay,stop babbling..
Mau nulis apa y hr ini hmm..
Sbnrny ga ngerti jg haha..cuma gara2 jalan2 ke satu blog yang seru banget,jadi ikutan terinspirasi buat ngepost haha..

Well anyway,
Mau nanggepin soal komen aya nih haha
Aya, no my bf is not a gay, he's nothing like it actually, at least for me haha it's just,emang kalo gw lagi kesel banget suka keluar kata2 aneh haha (no offense for all gays out there ya, i love u guys! I really do)
So, itu cuma lampiasan kemarahan gw yang ga mungkin gw bisa keluarin ke orangnya langsung hehe
Gitu ayame chan ^^

Yah but we're fine now, gw juga sadar ga guna juga marah2, malah nimbulin aura negatif di kita trus bikin screw our brain dan jadinya ga bisa nikmatin hidup deh
Lagian he needs me to wait for him patiently dan ga too clingy, beside he said he loves me more coz gw ga 'menuntut' dia banget dan malah ngasih ketenangan huhu
I miss him!
Just wait 1 more year and we'll be together forever haha sappy!me haha

Oh iya!
Tadi malem gw ke dvd langganan, and what i've found! Kya! SOUTH PARK MOVIE DVD!! Kyaa!
Senengnya ga kekira! Secara yah ni dvd fenomenal banget diantara temen2 gw waktu SMA (which is 9 years ago, mind me) karna ni film emang parah abis bahasanya dan emang dicekal dimana2 karna bahasanya yang full of 'F' word dan rasis banget haha.. Temen gw aja dulu bisa nonton dari temennya lagi yang pulang dari Malay, itu juga ga boleh dipinjemin, huh pelit! XD
Tapi akhirnya gw dapet tuh film, pas kuliah tingkat 2 kalo ga salah, gila gw sama si pacar langsung heboh abis2an haha..tapi tuh film cuma bertahan beberapa bulan ditangan, setelah pada akhirnya dipinjem sama temen gw dan ga balik2 lagi..
Uh gw kesel banget tuh waktu itu,cuma yah sama sobat sendiri hhh..
Yak dan akhirnya! Setelah bertahun2 berusaha nyari (i know, mungkin donlotannya ada,tapi ga kepikiran haha) gw mendapatkannya hahahahahahaha

Okay, kalo yang belum ngeh SOUTH PARK itu apa. .
SP tuh kartun 2 dimensi gitu, 4 sahabat yang pakaiannya ala kutub gitu dan mereka hidup di mountain village..
Nah yang fenomenal itu vocab yang mereka pake, yaitu full of Fword..haha makanya ni kartun bukan buat konsumsi anak2..
Dan tuh film rasis gila,terutama sama negara Canada dan aussie juga sempet disebut2 sih..
Yang lucu yah, ada adegan satan di neraka yang ternyata homoan dong sama Saddam Hussein hahaha and satan is the bottom! OMG! Hahaha..
Scene paling gw suka adalah pas ada anak kecil yang lagi 'Spelling Bee Competition' gitu dan disuruh spell 'FORENSICS'
dan dia nulis dong dipapan tulis setelah ngomong ber'fwords' ria,
"'s u c k m y a s s', forensics" kata tu anak gila huahahaha mantabs!
Ada lagi duo canadian, Terrance & Phillip, yang emang sumber perusak otak tu anak2..
Pokoknya rubbish banget deh ni film hahaha..ngaco abis! You should watch it deh haha
Ni yah, kalo sipacar baca pasti dia heboh maksa2 mau minjem hahaha and i'll plainly say, NO! Hahahaha
But i love you tho! Hahaha

Yasuw, enoughlah for today's rambling..
Want to watch sandra bullock's Two Weeks Notice again and again hahaha
Okay, don't miss me hahaha..

Little miss sunshine outta here!
Muah muah!

2008-11-10T22:37:00.001+07:00

YO! Wassap man! *pose with the coolest face in the world,while chewwing gum and never forget to make 'peace' finger in the face* (damn i'm cool, shitless.)

Darlings!!
10 november ni!
So,

HAPPY *HERO* DAY!

Nyahahaha~

Pis yo! Ahem!

2008-11-09T03:15:00.001+07:00

And.I'm.So.In.Love
In many senses~

Muahmuah!

2008-10-31T23:44:00.002+07:00

aaahh~~

i'll be off for couple of days...

so, see you around soon!!

(like anyone care nor read my entry -___-"")

2008-10-31T22:44:00.007+07:00

You have 100% of me...

From time to time, I think about all the memories and how much you mean to me.
So much of love, though times have changed; we grow together and forever we fall away.
Said you couldn't take me away, your love takes me away.
And I'm blown away
Time will never change how I feel for you.
Love please follow me now
True love is hard to find, like a fairy tale, you're mine.
Dream come true, my happy ending.

Cause I'm here, right now.
Right beside, forever with you.
No one can erase, just you and I, that we made.
Through all the fire and the rain, thought you'd dessert this hurricane.
I'm here, your love, for life.
You have 100% of me.

From then 'til now, we've been around.
First kiss, first touch then our first shout.
You'll always be the heart of me and that's the reason why you'll forever see.
I love you, and theres so many ways to show.
(I love you and I need you)
And there's so many ways to show.
True love is hard to find
I need you, I really need you, I really love -

Cause I'm here, right now.
Right beside, forever with you.
No one can erase, just you and I, that we made.
Through all the fire and the rain, thought you'd dessert this hurricane.
I'm here, your love, for life.
You have 100% of me.

Through the mountains, 'cross the sea.
No matter how far I have to go.
Your love is worth it and more then diamonds, treasures and gold.
Cause you are a part of me, you're my everything.
And if I could I would give you the world.
Like stars at night, the gift of light.
Thank God that I found your love.

Cause I'm here, right now.
Right beside, forever with you.
No one can erase, just you and I, that we made.
Through all the fire and the rain, thought you'd dessert this hurricane.
I'm here, your love, for life.
You have 100% of me.

You see baby, 100% of me
100% of me, 100% of me

I'm here, your love, for life..

thanks to Boyz II Men's 100%

be strong bb!

i know you can survive~ only 1 more year @__@;;

don't get too depressed, coz i don't know why but i can feel it here, even if you didn't tell me~

and anyway, you should be home in december okay?? you promise me~

huhu~ missed you my gay~~~~ :(

i know i'm acting like an annoying GFF but what can i do? all girlfriends are annoying! 8DD i just don't want to be different HAHAHA~

but THAT's because i have my own irritating BFF!! yeah uhuh! oh well i know, every boyfriends are irritating~~~ and you, my BFF, it means you'll forever irritate me -____-" dammit! it seems not right in both senses yeah? o___o;

kayaknya punya hobi baru liatin poto saya kan?? 8DDD dikasih yg updet deh HAHAHA~

see? i'm too cute to be left alone~ HAHAHA~

so, study hard-work hard and be back soon~ 8DD

okay~

ignore this post guys! -___-"

i'm off!

bye? 8DD

Note for my fuckable-gay : by the way, Jason Mraz kayaknya mau ke Indo, so can i come to the concert?? with whomever it is??? LOL~ OMG! i know what's the answer, you'll say NO, N.O.!! -_________-""

but the reason not because you're jealous that i'll go with another people but just because you ENVY me to be able to watch Jason~~~ hahahaha~

-_____-"" you never get jealous eh? YAH! what am i to you~!!! *turn crazy and pick up randomly boys XDDD*

^ i'm too hyper~

okay, maybe i won't come ^^ HAHAs dammit!

2008-10-29T01:42:00.007+07:00

suddenly,

perasaan saia gak enak banget..

jadi gak bisa tidur...deg2an terus..gak tenang...

pikiran saia ke si pacar terus...

i hope he's fine~

and i hope he isn't doing something stupid...

hhhhh~

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[EDIT]

02.19 am

i finally send him message asking, "r u okay?"

then he said he's not....and asked, how do i know...

hhhh~ somehow, i know it right away when something bad happen or when he's not in a good state~

let's say i can feel what he's feeling too, wherever he is~

meskipun saia lg sebel sama dia XDDDD~

be strong hon~

i feel like he's crying right now~ because i am, at the moment...kayaknya dia bener2 lagi feeling down..

just be strong okay? just couple of months more then you'll be home! don't forget i love you too~ so much!!

come home soon!!

2008-10-28T02:06:00.004+07:00

hhhh~

i dunno why, but i feel soulless today~

kepala kayak penuh, tapi gak tau mikir apa...

jadinya pas pulang kerja naik mobil n jalan tuh kayak ngikutin insting aja~

pas pulang, tiap naik mobil pun slalu gak sadar tu ada dimana dan hampir kelewat~

hhhhmmm~ kenapa yah??

padahal gak lagi kenapa2 kok~

mikirin pacar? nggak lah~ biasa aja, ada dia or ga ada juga rasanya sama...kayak gak punya pacar kkkkk~ kasian~

mikirin kerjaan? nggak juga~ everything's fine~

mikirin keluarga? nggak~

hmmmm~~~~

kayaknya i need to threat myself sooner deh~ backpacking mungkin?

gw sih rencananya si mau iseng kejogja, nunggu sibebi ngambil cuti seminggu~ haha~ beduaan biar berasa jadi 2 cewek petualang XDDDDDDD~ ngacho aja! XDDD ini juga kudu diomongin dulu ke dia kaliii HAHAHA~

so, november or desember?? let's see lah~ *wink2*

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haaa~ today beli film lumayan banyak XDDD~

beli Beverly Hills 90210 Next generation~! katanya seru banget~~

baru sampe 6 episode sih~ rencananya mau ditonton skrg~ :3

trus beli Gossip Girl season 2 YAY! HAHA~ tapi gak tau kpn ntnnya XDDD~

movienya beli Made of Honor, Premonition...

yg korea Miracle of Giving Fool

trus jepangnya Proposal Daigakusen & Attention Please Movies~

emang si banyak yg lama2nya but, heck! kan gw blom nonton wakakakakkkk

aaahhh~ masi penasaran Knight Rider!!! yup! the new generation~ cooler car, boys and all LOL~ sayang tadi keabisan huhuhu~ minggu depan balik lagi~~!! *winks*

aaahhh~ jujur! gw kan belom nonton Laskar Pelangi!! wakakakkkk~

makanya besok mau maksain nonton..untung di depok masi ada hahaha~

bukan apa2, kmrn2 kan sibuk banget tuh~ boro2 bisa nonton...tidur aja musti dipaksain XDD *cari alesan*

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oh bytheway, murid gw, anak korea namanya Moon MinJu~ bikin kaget~ dia hapal banget INDONESIA RAYA loh!!!! HAHAHA~ minggu kemaren dia nyanyiin dengan tempo yg superduper cepat! LOL~ kebayang gak sih lidah orang korea nyanyiin lagu Indonesia wakakkkkak logatnya jadi lucuuuuu~!! haha

oh satu lagi, Ha Bin...masa kemaren dia menyenandungkan lagu apa deh tuh dangdut yang sempet ngehits banget~ aahh lupa hahahaha~ yah pokoknya gitu hahaha~ bikin syok ajah~

ada sih satu cowok, Jonghyun, dia malah hapal banget lagu "o..ooo...kamu ketauan~ pacaran lagi~" dengan logat yang SANGAT INDONESIA hahaha~

good for you kids! harus ikutan cinta Indonesia dong kalo tinggal disini hahahaha~

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ohwell enuff for today's rambling~

miss chika says : up..up..and away~~!!

2008-10-26T16:52:00.002+07:00

meehhh....

but i LOVE that GAY~!

so very much dammit!!~ -____-""

o___O"

he didn't phone or message me yet, at all!

what is he doing there?? meeehhhh~

2008-10-25T10:20:00.001+07:00

Let this cute Joongie save my day~

cure my pain~

oooohhh so cutee~ and sexyyyy~

only my joongie can understand me..dundundundun...

2008-10-25T06:03:00.004+07:00

hai~ ^^

i'm tired~ of sleeping LOL~!

i got myself 2 days off (because my students have their sports day and birthday party~)

so, i spent my first day, which is yesterday with..

internet-munching-sleep-internet-eat-internet-sleep-internet-talk to mom-internet-eat-internet-sleep~ and blablabla~ HAHAHA~

i never move my butt from in front of my computer except for peeing or talk to mom LOL~ i even sleep in there, eat there HAHAHA~ what a lazybug LOL~! oh well, i'm not proud of it~

but at least that's how i can threat myself for my hard working this past months HAHA~ now i achieve it~HAHAHA~

oh today, maybe i'm going to find my fabs shoes for my fabulous kebaya~ HAHAHA~ anyone want to come??? HOHO~

aaahh~ too much laughing..but i'm dying inside XDDD~

well anyway, i want to ask you guys something~

what do you feel when your so-called-boyfriend can't come to your long awaited graduation?? well, yeah, it depend on the reason i know...he just far far away there~

BUT, what do you feel again if that boyfriend of yours didn't even bother to REMEMBER when you struggling on your Last-minutes-of-being-a-fuck-up-college-student???? and choose to fly away to his so-called-new-home just merely 2 days before that day??

AND, to make it worst, what do feel when you hear him complaining about how expensive it cost for phoning us for just like 3minutes, and it cost only hell 3thousand rupiahs, (and he's complained on the phone plus SMS!!)?? fyi, there would be 7 days of rain if he called me at least once a week!

so, what do you feel?

and what do you think, should i kick his ass because he thinks his all that, to think that i would never leave..hoeekkk~ oh no, i'm not perfect also my dear~

maybe he think that giving us stuff will make our mouth shut, heck he's complaining about how his father threat him like that "showing love with stuff, buying things and all" and yet, he did it with me -___-""

aaaaaaaahh! he's sooooooo *sensor*~!! and to think of it, i'm nearly getting married to a *sensor*!!!!!

(no matter how much i love *sensor*, but yeuhhhh as a husband?)

so much for 9 years of dating -____-"" a *sensor*!!

pissed off.

2008-09-30T19:12:00.001+07:00

MOHON MAAF LAHIR BATIN SEMUA~

*bows*

semoga ibadahnya sebulan ini diterima oleh Allah SWT.*amin~*

maafkan akyu yaaaahhh~ *mmuaaahhh~ mmuaahh!!*

2008-09-29T22:00:00.003+07:00

the things i want to say...

*if you want to be LOVED, try to LOVE first.*

*don't insult if you don't want to help.*

*always complaining never get you anywhere!!*

*aaahh...dont think high of yourself lah~

world ain't just revolve around you*

hhhh~ *sigh!*

2008-09-27T05:51:00.007+07:00

shoot!!

ternyata saya diboongin, ehm not that exactly sih, but STILL! SEBAL! seriously, gw gak mau lagi deh nanggepin omongan si xxx yang ngajak jalan bareng!! gw pikir yah, oohh~ hari itu dia gak bisa karna ada kerjaan atau apa, TAUNYA PACARAN!!! -____-"

sekarang mah, TERSERAH aja. urus urusan masing2.

I.HAD.ENUFF.OLREDEYH!!

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okay, these facts bothering me :

Apa ciri-ciri orang yang terkena penyakit kanker otak?

Best Answer - Chosen by Voters
-mukanya pucet
-rambutnya rontok
-sering pusing
-gampang pingsan
-lama kelamaan gak bisa jalan
-gak bisa ngomong
-gak bisa mikir
-gak bisa melek (kadang2 klo sakit dan mualnya gak ketahan,ehm almost everytime LOL~)
-gak bisa menggerakan tangan
dan sampai akhirnya.........MENINGGAL
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yang sederhana: pertama, rambut rontok,sering pusing,terhuyung -huyung....

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Penyakit ini bisa muncul tanpa gejala yang bermakna, tapi sering pula ditandai dengan gejala-gejala seperti pusing kepala, muntah, gangguan penglihatan, kesadaran, pendengaran, berjalan dan saraf. Sayangnya, sejauh ini belum ada pengobatan yang pasti, namun seiring dengan kemajuan teknologi kedokteran dan farmasi berbagai upaya dilakukan semaksimal mungkin untuk ?mengusir? penyakit tersebut.

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Penyebab pasti dari kanker otak/tumor otak belum diketahui secara tepat tapi berbagai faktor telah diketahui dapat meningkatkan risiko terjadinya kanker. Faktor risiko pencetus tumor otak ini bisa karena riwayat keluarga, radiasi, zat kimia, pola makan, obat-obatan tertentu, dan rokok.
Penyakit ini bisa muncul tanpa gejala yang bermakna, tapi sering pula ditandai dengan gejala-gejala seperti pusing kepala,
muntah,
gangguan penglihatan,
kesadaran,
pendengaran,
berjalan dan saraf.
*Tumor pada otak dapat mengganggu fungsi dan merusak struktur susunan saraf pusat karena terletak di dalam rongga yang terbatas (rongga tengkorak). Gejala yang harus diwaspadai adalah sakit kepala disertai mual dan muntah. Daya penglihatan berkurang, penurunan kesadaran dan perubahan perilaku. Pada bayi biasanya ubun-ubun besar menonjol. Hal lain yang patut dicurigai adalah bila terdapat gangguan bicara dan keseimbangan tubuh, anggota gerak melemah dan kejang
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Gejala kanker otak ga begitu spesifik, tergantung lokasinya, coz otak punya banyak bagian, yang tiap bagian mengontrol fungsi organ tubuh yang berbeda2. Kebanyakan sih emang mengeluh sakit kepala yang makin lama makin parah, tapi bisa juga sakit kepalanya mendadak langsung parah.

Ada juga yang mual, muntah, pandangan mengabur, pendengaran terganggu, ngalamin gangguan keseimbangan tubuh. Ada yang lemes, mendadak koma kayak Gugun Gondrong, atau ngalamin perubahan kepribadian. Ada yang tiba-tiba susah jalan, susah makan, gerak-geriknya terlihat aneh, susah bicara, bahkan susah memahami pembicaraan orang.

Masih banyak lagi gejala kanker otak, saking banyaknya sampai susah diduga kalau itu merupakan gejala kanker otak. Susahnya lagi belum ditemukan cara deteksi dini yang murah dan ampuh untuk mengenali adanya kanker atau tumor otak (kecuali dengan CT scan yang biayanya cukup mahal).

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Gejala spesifik tumor otak yang berkaitan dengan lokasi tumor juga memberikan tanda tertentu. Seperti tumor di bagian depan otak akan menimbulkan perubahan kepribadian, tumor di bagian belakang otak bisa menimbulkan kejang dan gangguan pada mata

yang perlu diwaspadai dari sakit kepala ini adalah apabila sakit kepala yang bersifat mendadak yang tak tertahankan, disertai mual muntah,adanya penurunan dari kesadaran, bicara mulai kacau, dan adanya gangguan pada anggota gerak maka kita harus mewaspadainya ke arah tumor otak. Apalagi keluhan tersebut berlangsung berbulan-bulan.

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Yang kita rasakan ketika sakit kepala tak lain adalah rasa nyeri yang diterima saraf otak. Rasa nyeri itu sendiri yaitu perasaan tidak nyaman yang bersifat individual terhadap respon ketidakberesan dalam kepala kita. Kalau sakit kepalanya ringan dan cepat hilang, ketidakberesan itu mungkin ringan-ringan saja. Sebaliknya, kalau sakit kepala itu muncul berulang kali disertai rasa mual dan muntah yang spontan, kita mesti waspada.Tidak tertutup kemungkinan, gejala tersebut mengindikasikan adanya kelainan di rongga tengkorak

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Pada kanker otak, gejala yang perlu diwaspadai adalah sakit kepala yang makin lama makin berat disertai mual sampai muntah yang menyemprot, daya penglihatan berkurang, penurunan kesadaran, terjadi perubahan perilaku seperti mengamuk, bahkan bisa menimbulkan kelumpuhan dan kejang. Kanker jenis ini biasanya terjadi pada anak yang sudah lebih besar.

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Dari fisik sehari2 ga tentu juga..tapi ada yang umum terjadi:

1. Sering sakit kepala.
2. Sering mual & muntah tanpa sebab. (bukan gara2 dipengaruhi makanan)
3. Nafsu makan turun
4. Berat badan turun tanpa sebab.
5. Kejang-kejang.
6. Pandangan mata kabur.
7. Gangguan psikologi. (halusinasi)
8. Gangguan kognitif. (gangguan ingatan)

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Karena tanda dan gejala tumor otak sangat luas sekali. Dari mulai ringan yaitu TANPA GEJALA SAMA SEKALI!!!. Bahasa kedokterannya adalah asymptomatic atau asymptomatis yaitu gejala tanpa gejala sakit sama sekali. Ataupun ada tanda-tanda yang ringan seperti pusing atau sakit kepala biasa yang tidak dirasakan. Tanda dan gejala ini sangat berkaitan dengan massa tumor itu sendiri, yaitu lokasi, besarnya, kecepatan tumbuhnya tumor, dan efek-efek ke jaringan dan organ sekitarnya.

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actually, ini fakta2 yang gw dapet dari beberapa site (gw lupa sumber2nya dari mana aja, hasil ngegoggling sih hehe~). and its bothering me. the red bold itu yang sering banget gw alamin. emphasize 'sering banget'nya.

duh bukannya gw parno yah, tapi melihat gw punya riwayat sakit syaraf otak beberapa tahun lalu akibat tifus yang kelamaan ditanganin (gara2 dokter yg salah diagnosa!!), yah gw jadi agak khawatir.

awalnya gw kepikiran karna beberapa hari lalu gw nonton TV yang lagi ngebahas penyakit ini dan Gugun Gondrong.

2 minggu yang lalu, gw ngalamin gejala ini lebih dr 2x. tapi yang dibarengin muntah cuma 2x~ dan gw juga punya masalah sama keseimbangan LOL~ yah tapi emang tiap minggu selalu ada aja sih, meski kadang ringan. terakhir gw rasain tadi malem, and it's hurt like hell! untung gak muntah ^^

haha~ gw diledekin ama adek2 gw, gara2 sekarang selalu sedia palstik kresek kemana2, soalnya kadang dateng pusingnya tiba2 hoho~

duh, gw ngepost ini bukan mengharap pity from semuanya yah. it's just my curiousity and anxiety. pengen tau pendapat yang baca blog ini, apakah hal2 yang gw alamin ini sudah harus diwaspadai apa belum.

jujur gw takut cek up ke dokter. trauma. tapi tadi subuh nyokap bilang, 'coba deh kamu cek ke dokter, bulan november aja ya?'. mungkin gw emang harus cek up.

please guys, postan ini bukan untuk nyari perhatian atau apa. gak mau gw disamain ama orang yang suka pura-pura sakit itu hahahaha~ and for certain people, jangan sedih ya! i know you will!! BUT, ini semua kan belom pasti hahaha~ let's think positive ya, sapa tau aja ini cuma karna stres~ *ngeyakinin diri sendiri*

okey, it's time for me buat nabung untuk biaya cek up, CT-scan dll. gw gak mau bothered ortu gw lagi. malah pengennya mereka gak tau pas gw cek up..aaahh~ i'll postpone my trip dulu lah~ ^^

Guys, pray for me okay?? *kedip2 genit*

oh by the way, kalo ada yang punya info soal gejala2 ini, boleh dong bagi2 ^^ love you guys LOTS!!

off to sing mirotic~ LOL!

2008-09-25T15:26:00.005+07:00

emosi gw lagi tinggi banget nih.

i feel disappointed with many things..or should i say, many people.

disappointed with mom since yesterday. a selfish mom, yet i can't even show i'm angry to her, since i'm too afraid of God and it's Ramadhan. i feel like crying. (hey, just a minute ago she came to me, i think she knows what i feel -i thought she's sleeping downstairs LOL)

i feel like i'm no one for some certain people, they always left me behind. but i love them nonetheless, so i'm okay. i guess. hehe.

i also feel so much disgusted with xxx, and give up asking them out for i always get rejection everytime. yet they always and always ask me, when will we go out together? HAH!so much for basa basi! what's the matter if we hangout without our "lover" for ONCE?!! gahhh~ i don't care! i don't really care!! even if xxx read this entry! i'm so fed up!!

and again, my boyfriend makes me crazy! he's not answering my calls, and now his phone's dead!! dammit! hey, i already off my work today for you!! but, no kabar sama sekali??? i hate you.

but who am i again, disappointed to people, well i'm sure know that i'm not that perfect to feel this, but gahh! for once, can i be human??

i'm goin' to hang out by myself then. need to freshing my brain~!!

oh yeah, no need to. i'm going out with my girlfriend LOL~ finally, you save my day beb XDDD

bye~

2008-09-24T07:19:00.005+07:00

hey hey~

aku senang! feel so contented~ lalala~

kemarin aku kencan lo~ yepp detto!

senangnya ketemu sipacar lg huahua~ mungkin ini the last time ketemu dia sampe dia pulang buat S2...huhu~ but i hope not~

waaaa~ sbnrnya acara kmrn rada kurang gimanaaa gt, secara gak sesuai rencana~ gak jadi nonton T___T krn sipacar maunya nonton didepok, dan kita ada di citos...walhasil sampe depok juga uda gak keburu~ yang anehnya, masa pulang dari citos jam 8 malem, HALAH~! kayak anak SMP wakakakk~

tapi kemaren akhirnya kesampean juga makan di Fish&Co...Gosh! gak nyesel! porsinya gede banget dan beberapa minuman bisa refill huhauha emang harganya agak bikin mata terbelalak dan dompet meringis, tapi man, it's worth it! menurut gw...tapi ada yang bikin nyesel~

makanan gw bersisa, gak abis~!! huhuhu penyesalan tiada tara~

porsinya emang gede banget, yang sebenernya kalo lagi gak puasa sih abis ama gw huahua~ (*seneng kan lo semua yg doyan ngatain napsu makan gw??!!)... cuma berhubung puasa, uda melak duluan makannya~ huhu tp enak banget!! sampe rumah masi kepikiran french friesnya huhu~ yummy~!

si pacar pesen menu The Best Fish & Chips in Town! – Fried, topped with lemon butter & served with chips. which taste a bit fresh he said~

and for me, New York fish & chips – your favourite fish & chips with generous cheese stuffing guaranteed to get you hooked!*

MECHA UMAY~!!!

all of them dengan porsi yang bisa dimakan ber2 huahua~ kebayang kan XDDD lagi2 saya bilang, kalo lagi gak puasa kayaknya bakal abis deh huauhau~ ohwell, lagi2 gw membantu peningkatan Global Warming dengan wasted food~ huhuhu~

really, sebenernya saya rada takut nih si hestibaby & venda (lebih sama hesti sih krn kita uda janjian mau makan brg disana XDD) kesel karna gw makan duluan disini...huhuhu~ guys, sorry~ that was the last minute choice karna bingung mau buka dmn, dan gw gak inget sama skali ada Fish&Co dicitos~ tiba2 sipacar bilang, "tuh dibelakang (tmpt kita berdiri ) ada seafood"...pas gw liat, kyaaa~!!! langsung masuk tanpa mikir2 lagi, (and say goodbye to Thai resto huhuhu)

next time, we should come together~!! love their coke~! soalnya bisa refill huahuahua~ *cheapshit lover mode on* but before that guys, can we try Thai resto?? i really want to taste it! huhu~ next time ya?? okay???!

and all in all, i'm so mecha happy2 joy2! not because the food, well it is hehe, but because i'm with my soulmate *huggles* i'm soooo muchiemuchiemuch missed him!

oh, by the way...gw sempet ke aksara bs nya yah, dan disana twilight saganya lengkap *WOHOO!* tapi yang agak mengecewakan, kenapa kondisi buku Twilightnya kurang baik yah? agak bergelombang kayak kena air gitu?? hmmm~

aaahh~ sepertinya hari ini aku akan bertemu sipacar lagi hohoho~ senangnya ketemu melulu XDDD~ dan kayaknya lagi mau liburan bareng ke Bandung YAY! (ahem, actually gw ngekorin dia yang katanya ada bisnis huahuhaa)

aku senang senang senang~! tapi juga sedih, karna tau dalam beberapa hari kemudian dia pergi lagi...T___T harus sabar dan kuat! YEAH~!

okay~ enough for today, i want to sleep lagi...masih ngantuk hohoho~

.:Peace, Love en Ghaul(DOY)!!:.

shoutyboxy replies :

kim key : waduh, mbak gaul, aku ndak tau tuh lagu brnya, gak kayak situ yg updet bgt soal K***ngen B**and huahuhaa

venda : sini2 tante peyuk2~! tahan emosi bb, lg puasa~ huhua~ btw, Bali gimana???

2008-09-23T08:20:00.008+07:00

despite of those 2 weird-chatter below,
i had a nice one also...
it makes me smile ^^
because i feel like everything's fine. no doubt about it. anymore.
oh! it made my yesterday!

Me: halo mister~
Me: ^__^
You: [On Mobile] Chatting from phone. Visit www.morange.com to know more.
You: Hi beautiful..
You: Ga sholat nih?

just a simple words can make me smile ^^ thanks!

currently, sedang membaca Orange~ karyanya Windry Ramadhina..(nice book! love it! kinda reminds me of My Lovely Kim Jaejoong haha~)

kebetulan dia naro link blognya dibelakang buku...iseng2 saia intiplah kesana...

dan pas lagi stalking around, ada satu link yang menarik perhatian...

linknya Joko Pinurbo...trus coba inget2 deh...kayaknya pernah denger atau liat nama itu diimanaa gitu...AH! ternyata saia baca blognya sherina munaf, dia sempet bilang kalo dia suka puisi2nya Joko Pinurbo...jadilah saya penasaran pengen tau...

page pertama, saya langsung nemu puisi ini :

Penjual Bakso

Hujan-hujan begini, penjual bakso dan anaknya
lewat depan pintu rumahku. Ting ting ting.
Seperti suara mangkok dan piring peninggalan ibuku.

Berulang kali ting ting ting, tak ada yang keluar
membeli bakso. Tak ada peronda duduk-duduk
di gardu. Semua sedang sibuk menghangatkan waktu.

Aku tak ingin makan bakso, tapi tak apalah
iseng-iseng beli bakso. Aku bergegas mengejar
tukang bakso ke gardu ronda. Bakso! Terlambat.
Penjual bakso dan anaknya sedang gigih makan bakso.

Airmata penjual bakso menetes ke mangkok bakso.
Anak penjual bakso tersengal-sengal, terlalu banyak
menelan bakso. Kata penjual bakso kepada anaknya,
“Ayo, Plato, kita habiskan bakso kita. Kasihan ibumu.”

Mereka yang makan bakso, aku yang muntah bakso.

(2004)

Sumber: Buku Puisi Kekasihku (2004)

ohmygod! and i love it instantly~!

i think i'm gunna try to read his poem as many as i found! he's great ^^

better go now...

i promise someone to get some sleep (yes, i haven't sleep since yesterday LOL~)

beside, i have a date today! my boyfriend is back~! YAY! soo excited~~ i'm soooo very megadoubleextrazillion missed him~! wish us luck and so much fun for the date kay?

C U people!

2008-09-23T00:35:00.005+07:00

many peeps in soompi's fussing about how the album only sold 300.000 despite of the news that DBSK have 800.000 own fans~ *sigh* maybe they're just forget that "the album is not coming out yet! it's just the preorder~! dayum!" sometimes cassie act like something hehe~

Okay~

it's time for the real life LOL~
will use 2 language for this entry now...

okay, so, saya chatted with 2 weird people this past 2 days LOL~

entah kenapa, kok saya bertemu 2 orang yang sama anehnya di YM haha~ irritatedly surprising..haha

it's sooo funny yet annoying! saya sempet save ni IMnya,

sinner number 1
(i change the id just so it wont hurt the person if xx happen to find this blog LOL *~~actually i'm a chickenshit XDD~~*)

xx: hi...still remeber me
chika takeuchi: you asked me before~
chika takeuchi: nope~ hehe
xx: coz ur id add in my folder.,
chika takeuchi: ooh~ hehe~
xx: couple month a go u ol with me
chika takeuchi: really?
xx:
chika takeuchi: hehe~
xx: cant not sleep??
chika takeuchi: nope~
chika takeuchi: too much interesting things to catch up XD
xx: oooo..
xx: may i know u more
xx: if dont mind
chika takeuchi: okay~
chika takeuchi: ^^
xx: first why ur nick takeuchi...
xx: are japanese style
(Me : i dont understand the Q actually -__-")
chika takeuchi: love naoko takeuchi~ sailormoon's creator~
chika takeuchi: ^^
xx: hahaaha
xx: iam the mask warriors
(haha -__-" what the hell!)
chika takeuchi: LOL~
chika takeuchi: who's mask warrior??
xx: friend of sailormoon
xx: dont u remember ?
chika takeuchi: eh?
chika takeuchi: nope~
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: aaaahhh~
xx: whr u live?
chika takeuchi: mask prince~ lol~!
(gw juga gak tau formnya apa di english LOL~)
chika takeuchi: depok
xx: still study or something else
chika takeuchi: work~ ^^
chika takeuchi: how bout you?
xx: same like u
xx: wheres?
(i'm trying to comprehend the word here XD)
chika takeuchi: cibubur~
chika takeuchi: private teacher~
xx: oooo thats great..english teacher ??
chika takeuchi: hmm~ yeah~ XD
xx: yeah hundred for me
chika takeuchi: LOL~
chika takeuchi: do i know you?
xx: iam can guaranted
(-__-")
xx: but if u ask me or u wanna be my soulmate ,,maybe
xx: hahahha
chika takeuchi: LOL~
chika takeuchi: what a funny guy you are~ haha~
(he seriously think this is a question! -w-)

xx: i cant tell u more
xx: u must find it alone
xx: chika takeuchi: eh?
xx: have u boy friend now
xx: sory if ask u like that..
(LORD! he doesnt get the sarcasm
at all~! he thought that it was a Question! HAHA -__-")
chika takeuchi: no~
xx:
chika takeuchi: but fiance maybe LOL~
xx: oooo thats great
xx: so when u will get married
chika takeuchi: dunno~
chika takeuchi: LOL~
chika takeuchi: maybe after 10 years dating~
chika takeuchi: LOL~
chika takeuchi: or less
xx: oh...its too long
xx: why?
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: yeah~
chika takeuchi: need lots of preparation~
chika takeuchi: ^^
chika takeuchi: but it's not that long though~
xx: i thing its long time
xx: what u waiting for
chika takeuchi: the 10 years time only one and a half year from now T___T
chika takeuchi: OOPS wrong icon~ not T___T but ^___^
xx: hehehe
chika takeuchi:
xx: dont forget to invite me ok
chika takeuchi: haha~ kay~
xx: are u moeslem
chika takeuchi: yepp~
chika takeuchi: why?
xx: nothing just asking
chika takeuchi: LOL~ okay~
chika takeuchi: are you?
xx: muhammad is my prophet
xx: i love him
xx: heheh
chika takeuchi: hehe
chika takeuchi: ^^
chika takeuchi: what do you do?
xx: chat in my room
xx: stand bye to reply ur msge
xx: hehe
chika takeuchi: no~ i mean, your job~
chika takeuchi: hoho~ speedy user too? XD
xx: hehehee
xx: my job leasing company
chika takeuchi: oohh
chika takeuchi: okay~
chika takeuchi: XD
xx: so what now>>>
chika takeuchi: what's what?
xx:
xx: maybe u wanna sher ur vionce
(ohmygosh!)

chika takeuchi: hoe?
chika takeuchi: what do you mean?
xx: i mean share something
chika takeuchi: ohh~
chika takeuchi: XDD~
chika takeuchi: what to share?
xx: i dont know???
xx: ur jomaybe
xx: or ur love
xx: hahahaha
chika takeuchi: haha~
xx: alooow
chika takeuchi: yeah?
chika takeuchi: XDD
xx: wanna help me
chika
takeuchi: with what?
xx: sing to me
xx: nina bobo
xx: hahah
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: you'll die if you listen to my singing~
chika takeuchi:
xx: its ok..i can handle that
chika takeuchi: opps~ gotta go~
chika takeuchi: need to sleep~
chika takeuchi: bye~
chika takeuchi:
xx: ok
xx: bye

aishhh~ gila deh gw nih...gara2 blogspot!
udah 2jam gw ngurusin mau post i entry doang...gagal mulu! ada aja errornya..
aaaaaaaaaahhh~!

~~so, gw post 1 im aneh aja dulu deh...~~
~~yang kedua menyusul. gw uda eting abis soalnya -x-~~

here it is~

Sinner number 2
(dont want to bother to change the name, i'm
too lazy that's it. beside, i dont like the guy really~ he just too fishy.
eewww)

obi obi: hii
chika takeuchi: hi~
obi obi: ware u from
chika takeuchi: huh?
obi obi: sorry
obi obi: km inget aq gk
chika takeuchi: hehe~
chika takeuchi: duh~ nggak
obi obi: ia maag
obi obi: maf
obi obi: aq juga enggak
obi obi: maksud ku kerain situ dr orang asing
obi obi: jadi aq tanya ware u from
chika takeuchi: oohh haha~
obi obi: uheuheuhe ehh taunya situ orang nya sama indo
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: iyehh~
chika takeuchi: namanya doang~
obi obi: hhehe
obi obi: met kenal dch klw gituu
obi obi: boleh kan klw kenal
obi obi: tapi sepertinya kita pernah kenal cuma dah lama gak chat
obi obi: soalnya koq nick lo pernah ada di list gue
chika takeuchi: iya si kayaknya
chika takeuchi: iya
obi obi: gue obby
chika takeuchi: chika ^^
obi obi: met kenal yaaa
obi obi: chiika gy sibuk ap nch
obi obi: sekarng
chika takeuchi: online XDDD
obi obi: apa ya ituu
obi obi: gk tauu
obi obi: bisa di kasih tauu
chika takeuchi: hehe
chika takeuchi: kasih tau apaam?
obi obi: kita kan gk gaulll
obi obi: itu xddd
chika takeuchi: oh.
obi obi: bisa nya kita di gauli
chika takeuchi: emang anak gaul pake itu?
obi obi: ehh salah
obi obi: heheee
chika takeuchi: haha.
obi obi: canda
obi obi: jadi paan tuhh chik
chika takeuchi: ketawa
obi obi: ketawa artinya
chika takeuchi: iyapp
obi obi: cuma itu doankk
obi obi: sial kerain gue paan
obi obi: bisa aja dechh
obi obi: oh ya chik
obi obi: fs lo apa
obi obi: mau di add gk
chika takeuchi: gak pernah buka2 fs hehe~
obi obi: sama
obi obi: donkk
obi obi: cuma tanya aja sechh tadii
obi obi: punya cuma gk dibuka²
obi obi: heheh koq bisa sam yaa
chika takeuchi: hehe~
(at the moment, gw lagi checking my FS LOL~)

obi obi: lo masih kul apa dah ker chik
chika takeuchi: uda kerja~
obi obi: dimana
chika takeuchi: cibubur
chika takeuchi: lo?
obi obi: ha cibubur
obi obi: masih di depok
obi obi: daeranya gitu maksudnya
obi obi: haloow
obi obi:
chika takeuchi: yaa?
obi obi: mangya lo tinggal di daerah mana nechh
obi obi: gue juga ada di daerah depokk
obi obi: tuh kan dekatt
obi obi: hehehehe
chika takeuchi: hehe~
chika takeuchi: depok 2
obi obi: depok2 mana
obi obi: gue di margonda
chika takeuchi: ya depok 2 hehe~
chika takeuchi: bingung jelasinnya hha
obi obi: ya udah gk usah dijelasinn
obi obi: yg penting dah taulahh
obi obi: ohh kerja dibagian ap ini
obi obi: maksudnya kerjanya
obi obi: sibuk yaa
chika takeuchi: bukan dikantoran~
obi obi: terus
obi obi: ditoko gitu..?
chika takeuchi: bukan~ hehe
chika takeuchi: gw ngajar les privat
obi obi: weks
chika takeuchi: knp weks?
obi obi: pinter donkk
obi obi: les apa tuhh
obi obi: mau donkkkk
obi obi: gue lagi cari les bhs jepang
chika takeuchi: bhs inggris, buat anak2 korea
obi obi: masatihhh
obi obi: boleh donkk blajarrr
(after this, the guy REALLY annoying! like hell!)
chika takeuchi: masatihh apaan tuh?
obi obi: biaayanya brp
chika takeuchi: emang lo org korea?? XDDD~
obi obi: ia bukann
obi obi: cuma mau blajar bhs nya gituu lohhhhh non
obi obi: bisa gk
obi obi: soalnya teman² gue banyak orang korea
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: gw kan guru bhs inggris, bukan korea
obi obi: ia tapi kan lo ngajar orang korea
obi obi: berarti tau donkk
obi obi: gi pula inggris gue payahh
obi obi: mau donkk perdalam lagii
obi obi: ya sapa tau ada orang pinter dan baek mau ngajarin gue
obi obi: klw biaya gk jadi masalah dchh
obi obi: yg penting yg ngajar iklasss
obi obi: uhaiuauha
chika takeuchi: haha~ becanda aja lo
chika takeuchi: gw ngajar ya ga pk korea kalii~
chika takeuchi: pake bhs inggris XDD
obi obi: heheheheehhe
obi obi: jadi gimana bisa gk ngajarin orang bego kayak gue
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: lo les di LIA aja
obi obi: yachh mlss
obi obi: coba pikir dr pada di lia mendingan ma orang yg udah kita kenall
obi obi: ya walau pun kenalnya di chatting
obi obi: boleh donkk
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: gw sih lebi memilih LIA XDD~
chika takeuchi: lebih jelas, dpt sertifikat

obi obi: ya ini kan bukan cari sertifikat non
obi obi: iina sekalian cari jodohhhhhh...? sapa tau aja coocokkk gituu
obi obi: ihaihiauhiuahiuahuia
obi obi: canda gue
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi:
gw tau maksud lo
obi obi: gk koqqq chiis
obi obi: chikk
obi obi: serius gue gak gituu
obi obi: cuma canda koqqq
obi obi: just kidding
obi obi: boleh kan canda ma lo dikitt
chika takeuchi: iyee~ santai aja kali hehe
obi obi: ya klw bisa jg gue senengg
obi obi: haihaihauhaiuhaiuhiaha
obi obi:
chika takeuchi: lu girang amat sih hahaha~
obi obi: nama juga lagi deketin ce
obi obi: co mana sech yg gk suka deketin ce
obi obi: hehe
obi obi: maaff canda lgii
obi obi: mangya lo dah punay suami atau co gitu apa calon suami
obi obi: ..?
obi obi: salah gak ya gue tanya gitu
(jelaslah sudah niat ni orang!)

chika takeuchi: haha~
obi obi: ngeri salah gue
obi obi: maaf ya chik klw salah ngomongg
obi obi: dr pada nantinya lu kesal ma gue
obi obi: mendingan gue minta maaf duluann
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: apaan sih lo
chika takeuchi: XDDD
obi obi: tuh kann
obi obi: marahhh
obi obi: bener kan apa kata gue
obi obi: tapi gue bleh tau kan lo dah punya co apa enggak
obi obi: ..??
obi obi: :_?
chika takeuchi: emang knp?
obi obi:
obi obi: ya nanti klw gue jadi privat ma lo nanti co lo marah lagii sanggkaanya paan
chika takeuchi: emang gw setuju ya ngasi lo privat???
obi obi: ohhhh ia yachhh lupa guee..???
obi obi: jadi lo gak gansich nechh orng bego kayak gue jadi penter nanti nya
obi obi: pa lo takut klw gue nanti blajar ma lo terus gue jadi pinter dan bisa kalahin loo
obi obi: uheueueh
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: lucu lo~
chika takeuchi: XDDD
obi obi: emang gue lucuuu
obi obi: baaru tau lo yee
obi obi: makan nya lo harus ajarin gue yackkkkk
obi obi: gimana
obi obi: ..?
chika takeuchi: nggak ah
chika takeuchi: XDDD
obi obi: yachhh
obi obi: gue bayar koqq gak ngutanggg
obi obi: masa gk bolehh
obi obi: jadi gimana
obi obi: ..?? masih tetap gk boleh nchh
chika takeuchi: haha~
chika takeuchi: lo niat banget yah
obi obi: namanyajuga mau pinter
chika takeuchi: haha~
obi obi: masak gk niat schh
chika takeuchi: yauda BBC aja kek
obi obi: apa lagi tuh bbc
chika takeuchi: tempat les
obi obi: gk mau ahh gue
obi obi: kan dah gue bilang
obi obi: di lia aja gk mau apa lagi bbc
obi obi: mangya klw teman gak mau ya klw liat temannya pinter
obi obi: ohh gue tau nechh pasti lo takut gue k bayar kan
obi obi: gue bayar koqqq gk ngutang
chika takeuchi: gwnya males
obi obi: ych koq lonya si mls
obi obi: klw mls itu mau donkk
chika takeuchi: haha~

(another minutes passed-)

obi obi: hii
BUZZ!!!
obi obi: sooryy ngelekk nech koneksina
obi obi: masih online kan
obi obi:
BUZZ!!!
obi obi: HAII
obi obi: koq gak ada suaranya
obi obi: kemana nchh
BUZZ!!!
obi obi: aduhh
obi obi: bisa ketemua gkk

seriously, i really dont like this guy!
i dont like the way he talk, how he used some words,
he even sounds a lot like horny bastard..
he thinks that he can trick any woman, he's too full of himself!
he also thinks money can give him any woman he wants BUT i dont think that he has those money~ he talks shit!
kata2nya dia itu terdengar 'melecehkan' kalo menurut gw...soal yang bayar membayar itu~
gilaa~ kalo dia konglomerat, kalo dia all that, dia gak mungkin juga kan gatel nyari temen chatting buat dikopi daratin trus i do stuff (hiiii~ i dont even want to think of that!)...sumpah omongannya tuh menggelikan banget!
sok mencoba menarik perhatian!
hiiii~ gak kena deh buat gw..
dan baca aja deh, tanggepan2 sarkastis gw gak kena ke tuh orang! gila!

sebenernya gw sempet ngetik analisis tentang 2 orang ini, tapi lagi2 blogspot sial abis, ngilangin postan gw! so, aku jadi malas heuhehue~

well anyway, finally, saya sudah mendelete kedua org ini dari YM gw! sebelumnya tidak lupa nyetting ke permanently offline ke mereka!
dumped them permanently...period.

2008-09-22T23:35:00.002+07:00

haaa~

such a tiring day~ it's because that goddamn showcase!! HA!GOSH! the gods are back~! who's the GODS???? it's none other than, DONGBANGSHINKI~! kyaaaaaaa *start wailing like crazee*

i've been stalking soompi yesterday~ till morning! and YAY~! new awesome MV, full version finally release and hell it's so effin HOT! dammit!

i love the performance~! those are megazillion LOVE~!

and the pictures!! AAAAAAAAAAHH~ i think i'm gunna lose my mind at the end of this month~

-___-" the GODS really controlling my mind, and soul~! yes they're really got me under their skin! DAMN!

oohhh~ and they topped many charts, many many polling sites and stuff~

AND the album's preorder reached 300.000 already~! WOW!

man~ they're sooooo EVIL~! hehe..

even in soompi,the users who read the dbsk thread reached 600+ on that day! dayum~! someone's also pointed out that actually at that time the korean music thread had 800+ users, so it means the boys had 75% of the user alone~!! obviously the legend ne?

aaaahh~ my english! aigoo~ where's my effin vocabs gone to?????

will be back later~

2008-09-21T07:01:00.000+07:00

imma gunna shouty boxy you back~!

chapunx : 1. ichaaa~!! iyahhh~! mantabss mirotic!! love it nonetheless..haha~
2.let's meet bb! you're home rite? chuu~

AYame : 1. aya~ aku suda lurking2 ke twilightindo~ tp blm reg~ aaargh! i'm so much into edward~
2. mauuu~ ikutan gath~! huhu~ PPIJ senior apa kbrnya yah huhu~

Jane : YAY~! thankyou bb!

medio : 1.ahaha~ vendut! akhirnya lu bikin jg diluar MP! gitu doong haha~
akan kuspamm sb muh! HAHA~ you ask for it ne? XDD
2. dammit venda! gak usa dipublikasiin gitu kali yaa..cinlau bett gw haha~ siyal lu!

obray : obraaaaaayyy~~~~ LOL!

siszy : douzo~ ^.~

2008-09-20T14:06:00.002+07:00

hah~

entah kenapa saia eting sekali sore ini~

mungkin karna lapar haha~ ditambah gak bisa hangout gara2 ada bukber keluarga besar -__-"

gelaaa~ bokap uda ngewarning kalo semua harus ikut, gak terkeuali~ apapun alesannya! damn!

lagi eting2 begini ehh~ si venda sms bikin eting~ gwnya sih yang oon HAHA~

liat tuh sms, ga discroll down ude kepancing emosi~ taunya dia cuma ngerjain HAHA~

maapkan aku sayang~ aku lapar~ XDDD~

nih ditambah lagi ni~

ada yg tiba2 nge-YM gw cuma buat maki2 orang~

sumpah gak banget deh 'vocabulary'nya~

entah kenapa setiap pembicaraan yang dia lakukan selalu terselip 'vocab' yang DOY abis, meaning yang unintelligent getoh~

my god!

heran gw, kenapa ya ada orang yang 100% menolak introspeksi diri, dan lebih memilih nyalahin kesalahan orang lain?? anehh~ super duper aneh~

haha~ lebih aneh gw yah, masih bisa tahan ama tuh orang XDDD~ padahal uda pernah jadi korban juga ahahaha~ WELL, at least abis itu gw jadi tau dia gimana sbnrnya...tadinya kan dibodohi aja gitu selalu~ damn!

ohwell~ puasa2 gw eting~! XDDDD

aaaah~ mirotic membelenggu hidup nih! geeelaaaa bangetttt~!!!

oiya, it's time for spazzing out my lovelifetheme~

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side

And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry

That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall

Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all

It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

dont have to ask what's the matter, just read and comprehend. every words tell you what i feel~ but i think i got zero chance for my blunt boyfriend to understand LOL~ but i still love him deeply, even there's no more i love you's anymore ^^

dammit, i miss you!

tapi, saya sadar sekali, karna tiap hubungan itu dijalanin sama 2 pihak, half of the fault is mine~ so, i'm trying to be good here...patiently introspecting self~ i really wanna be a selfless one really, hhh~

ohwell~!

oh bytheway, selain gw kena mirotic syndrome, ternyata didiagnosa saya terkena OCD juga~

which is, Obsessive Cullen Disorder~! LOL~

aaahh~ hve to go now~

will be back tonight tho~ for replying all my shoutbox (ohmy, forgive me being such an asshole friend guys -___-")

BYE? XD

2008-09-20T06:28:00.002+07:00

coming back from the spell nih~ HAHAHA~

i'm sooooo in mirotic mode right now, like everybody does!!

dammit!

lalala~

i cant post anything this morning, maybe afternoon~

need to go to work~~ (saturday, still working~ doom!)

aaahhh~

XDDD

pointless.

2008-08-28T01:48:00.002+07:00

what my horoscope says today :

Libra
Set your hopes too high, and you increase the chances you'll be disappointed.

jadi inget kata my girlfriend,
"jangan terlalu berharap banget, nanti kalo gak berhasil lo drop banget~"
hahaha~

iya juga yah~

oh well, setidaknya sekarang gw usaha dulu...
penentuannya hari Jumat~
sengaja besok sampe sabtu gw ambil day off..
bener2 mau konsen ngerjain~
sekarang niat gak mau bobo..
lagi ngumpulin mood berjuang!
XDDD~

FIGHTING~!

2008-08-27T00:45:00.003+07:00

waaa~

lagi buka2 friendster, and look what my daily horoscope says :

A current project has been feeling neverending, but there are sign of progress, now.

ohmygosh!
this is LOVE! totally LOVE~! menjawab keluhan saya XDDD~
HAHA~ i'm so stressful now but hey, yes it's progressing nicely~

semakin semangat bekerja saya! FIGHTING~!!

ohyeah~!!

TRUE STORY~

2008-08-26T22:20:00.002+07:00

hanya untuk mencerahkan hati~ ^^

True Story :
Jangan pernah berhenti untuk berbuat baik

Suatu hari, seorang anak lelaki miskin yang hidup dari menjual asongan
dari pintu ke pintu, menemukan bahwa dikantongnya hanya tersisa
beberapa sen uangnya, dan dia sangat lapar.

Anak lelaki tersebut memutuskan untuk meminta makanan dari rumah
berikutnya. Akan tetapi anak itu kehilangan keberanian saat seorang
wanita muda membuka pintu rumah. Anak itu tidak jadi meminta makanan,
ia hanya berani meminta segelas air.

Wanita muda tersebut melihat, dan berpikir bahwa anak lelaki tersebut
pastilah lapar, oleh karena itu ia membawakan segelas besar susu.
Anak lelaki itu meminumnya dengan lambat, dan kemudian bertanya,
"berapa saya harus membayar untuk segelas besar susu ini ?"
Wanita itu menjawab: "Kamu tidak perlu membayar apapun".
"Ibu kami mengajarkan untuk tidak menerima bayaran untuk kebaikan"
kata wanita itu menambahkan.
Anak lelaki itu kemudian menghabiskan susunya dan berkata :" Dari
dalam hatiku aku berterima kasih pada anda."

Sekian belas tahun kemudian, wanita muda tersebut mengalami sakit yang
sangat kritis. Paradokter dikota itu sudah tidak sanggup
menanganinya.

Mereka akhirnya mengirimnya ke kotabesar, dimana terdapat dokter
spesialis yang mampu menangani penyakit langka tersebut.
Dr. Howard Kelly dipanggil untuk melakukan pemeriksaan. Pada saat ia
mendengar nama kota asal si wanita tersebut, terbersit seberkas
pancaran aneh pada mata dokter Kelly.
Segera ia bangkit dan bergegas turun melalui hall rumah sakit, menuju
kamar si wanita tersebut.

Dengan berpakaian jubah kedokteran ia menemui si wanita itu. Ia
langsung mengenali wanita itu pada sekali pandang. Ia kemudian kembali
ke ruang konsultasi dan memutuskan untuk melakukan upaya terbaik untuk
menyelamatkan nyawa wanita itu. Mulai hari itu, Ia selalu memberikan
perhatian khusus pada kasus wanita itu.

Setelah melalui perjuangan yang panjang, akhirnya diperoleh
kemenangan.. . Wanita itu sembuh !!. Dr. Kelly meminta bagian keuangan
rumah sakit untuk mengirimkan seluruh tagihan biaya pengobatan
kepadanya untuk persetujuan.

Dr. Kelly melihatnya, dan menuliskan sesuatu pada pojok atas lembar
tagihan, dan kemudian mengirimkannya ke kamar pasien.
Wanita itu takut untuk membuka tagihan tersebut, ia sangat yakin bahwa
ia tak akan mampu membayar tagihan tersebut walaupun harus dicicil
seumur hidupnya.

Akhirnya Ia memberanikan diri untuk membaca tagihan tersebut, dan
ada sesuatu yang menarik perhatuannya pada pojok atas lembar tagihan
tersebut. Ia membaca tulisan yang berbunyi..
"Telah dibayar lunas dengan segelas besar susu.." tertanda, DR Howard Kelly.
Air mata kebahagiaan membanjiri matanya. Ia berdoa: "Tuhan, terima
kasih, bahwa cintamu telah memenuhi seluruh bumi melalui hati dan
tangan manusia."

Sekarang terserah anda,anda dapat mengirimkan pesan cinta ini kepada
orang lain, atau abaikannya dan berpura-pura bahwa kisah ini tidak
menyentuh hati Anda.--

ohmygod~
saya merinding bacanya~ hiks!

2008-08-26T21:16:00.010+07:00

The very much awaiting movie~!

~TWILIGHT~

ohmygosh~!
really cant wait~!!!

little news about the movie...

***August 15, 2008***

Movie News Flash!

So, many of you have heard that the release of the sixth Harry Potter movie, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, has been moved from this Thanksgiving to next summer. First and foremost, please know that this schedule change has absolutely nothing to do with Twilight, me, or Summit Films (so enough with the imdb death wishes, okay?). This is Warner Bros. decision, and it was not motivated by anything Twilight-related.

Now for the good news! Though we're all sad to have to wait for Harry Potter, this open spot at the theater creates a cool opportunity. The good people at Summit were thrilled to let me know that now Twilight fans are going to get their movie three weeks earlier than scheduled. That's right—Twilight will be released in theaters November 21st! Let the merry-making commence!

--Stephenie

OH.MY.GOD!

little brief :

TITLE: Twilight
AUTHOR: Stephanie Meyer
PUBLICATION: Little, Brown Children’s Books, September 2006
GENRE: Young Adult Paranormal Romance

TWILIGHT is an international bestselling young adult book that fans claim is the next big thing since Harry Potter. The sheer amount of buzz turned me off. How could the book possibly live up to its hype? I finally gave in after a camping trip on the Olympic Peninsula, where the book is set. I didn’t want to be the last person on the planet to see what all the fuss was about. It was a daunting task, overcoming my preconceived notions, but Ms. Meyer’s debut novel in the end won me over. I quickly snapped up the remaining three books in the four book saga and was quite satisfied.

PLOT:

Isabella (Bella) Swan moves to Forks, a tiny town on the rainy Olympic Peninsula in Washington State, to live with her dad when her mother remarries. Bella braves being a new student in the small high school where everyone knows everyone else. Yay for small town life! To her surprise, every guy in school develops a crush on her, but she finds herself drawn to the mysterious and antisocial Cullen family. In particular, the youngest son Edward captures her attention, because he is the most beautiful person she has ever seen and he smells good. Edward and his siblings skip school when it is sunny and are never seen eating. They have cold skin and strange eyes. Edward is by turns charming and hostile. For him, she is the apple. He wants to take a bite. Despite his moodiness, Bella can’t get him out of her head. When he saves her life on more than one occasion, she becomes even more obsessed. (This relationship is unhealthy, which is why I am a Jacob fan-girl. Are we trying to tell our daughters that this behavior is normal? I hope not.)

Bella’s friend Jacob tells her some legends about bloodsuckers and shapeshifters, and Bella begins to put two and two together: The Cullens are not human. She confronts Edward and he relents into showing her some of his world of “vegetarian” vampires. He has difficulty not sucking her blood, but Edward is nothing if not self controlled. Unfortunately not all vampires are good, and when an evil vampire sets his sights on Bella, the Cullen family must band together to save her. Bella is very good at getting into life-endangering situations, and sitting around looking pretty while the men fight to save her.

credit to ciaralira.wordpress.com

The Book

and now, the faces of the hottest vampire and his queen~
(ohmygosh! i'm in love with Bella~!!!)

can't wait~!

2008-08-26T01:00:00.004+07:00
it's me again~ i'm BACK~ LOL!

aaahhh~ such a tiring day today~
been glomped to everywhere with superpower in second!

i thought today i was going to do 6 lessons, but it's decrease to 3 XDD~
but that's okay~ i'm a lazy girl, so i'm happy if i had to go home early XDD~
but but i missed my 2 kids, the last two lessons for today..
it seems they're still in their holiday's mood, just got back from Korea and all, yeah~ i miss them XDD~

jooyoun-aaah~! why dont you call me???!!
you said you love me very much~ *cries in the corner*

and today, i felt kinda down...
it's because Pilhwan have another lesson~ T___T
i think his mom going to cut my lesson, but i dont know~
her children are really into me though~ XD

she said that the other lesson is Korean so, yeah~
and her face when she told me, looked guilty~
and asked me, how about Pilhwan do 30 minutes? like that
hhhh~
but i said, oh that's good if Pilhwan had another lesson, moreover if it's Korean, so he'll understand it very well, the explaination and stuff~
oooh~

you know why this thing happen???
(gonna type it in indo~!)

well, grade englishnya Pilhwan turun T_____T
he's in A+ class last time, but now he's in A class
hhhh~
my fault~
ga sadar kalo kestressan gw bulan2 kemaren berdampak sama murid gw T___T
adeknya, Minju juga gradenya down abiss~ kalo ini gw gak tau kenapa..

akhirnya tadi saking gw sedih dan keselnya, gw bilang sama Minju,
Me : hey minju, promise me you'll study hard this term! get a good score~! if not, i will cut my lesson for real, okay?
Minju : *pouting* okay~

*couple minutes later*

Minju : oh miss chika, you know that i never remember my score last term right? and i only got 8 and 8, and not 10 like that? now i'm going to remember it okay? i'll get 10 always... *puppy eyes*
Me : hmmm...good..now study!

kkkk~ *i become an evil teacher XDD*

hhaaa~ let's hope their mom wont cut my lesson~
they're my first kids~ for God sake pshhh~

hhhh~
not a good teacher i am -____-"

2008-08-22T11:49:00.003+07:00
counting days...

curse my lazzy ass..

for the N'th time in a long life of mine, again, i hate being me, which i never did for the longest time i ever remembered.

now, really stuck in a moment..
waiting for the days i get burried with all the negatives in me.

i hate being in this kind of situation,
yet, like a donkey, i always experience it over and over again..

ah, prepare for my death!

i'm a sinner, and i'm no effin proud of it.

think hard, play rough, it's time for me to beat my'stupid'self and grab my right to be the one!

FIGHTING!!

(nevermind my stupid attemp in vocabs and grammar T__T)

i'm hella back!!

2008-08-22T01:38:00.004+07:00

So GLAD to be BACK :D

wont write anything today~
i'm feelin kinda sick..
want to vomit =}

so, see you tomorrow, as in today's afternoon? LOL~

ah, for anta~
i'm so so sorry~
lupa lagi mau aktifin simpatinya & nelpon..
but i know you still love me, indeed.. *wink2*

okayy~ BYE?

2008-08-07T23:32:00.001+07:00
Mukyaaaa!!
Finally! I dyed my hair to 'irish red' colour! Yay! Aaah i'm in love with my hair haha~
rambutnya udah panjang~
trus warnanya! Kyaaa~
hahaha~

kayaknya lagi tren coloring ditemen2 gw xDD kemaren si FG,my bff, ngedye rambutnya,dan jd keren bgt! Tp bo' si tuan hedon itu ngabisin seperempat gajinya buat nge dye! Anjrit!! Hedon! Tp emg sih hasilnya keren~ worth it lah~
tp buat gw yang cheapshit lover,gw punya cara sendiri buat ngedye keren but not cost a fortune xDD
ah tetep aja keren! Haha~ i'm so full of myself today!

Tadi, abis 'having fun' di salon dan puas bgt xDD akhirnya nyobain ear therapy jg,wuidih enaknyaaa..Apalagi pas ngeliat hasil kotorannya nyahahaha mantabz! Ampir aja gw tidur di tuh salon dah, meski manicure si mbak kurang memuaskan, at least uda kinclong jari jemari gw muahahaha..Malah dapet pujian dari si capster lg,katanya duh tangannya kecil bgt, halus bgt lagi! Muahahaha ah si mbak bisa ajah! Nyahahaha~

agak mengherankan emang buat seorang gw ngabisin waktu ke salon..Ini semua karena, besok mau ketemu si pacar! Muahaha! Akhirnya,bisa ketemu juga..
Padahal gw masih sedih dan kecewa karna dia pulang udah berapa hari tapi ga ngehubungin gw atau main kerumah sama sekali..Tapi,setelah gw mikir lagi, ah no use jg buat marah2,bikin capek doang..Bikin muka kusam, hidup ga tentram! XDDD jadi gw memutuskan untuk nikmatin waktu beberapa jam yang dia sempetin besok ^^
karna si pacar jarang pulang, jadinya harus tampil gorgeous kalo ketemu! Hehe *blushing*

bytheway, gw udah bilang belum ya,that i LOVE my hair?! Hahaha~

softlens? Jaejoong banget!
Hair colour? Jaejoong banget!
Muahahaha jaejoongified!!
Tapi kayaknya warna rambut gw malah lebih keren deh xDD rada2 maroon gt kalo kena cahaya~ eh apa masih kamuflase yah? Ah tau ah hahaha~

argh! I'm so happy today!!

Yasuwlah, need my beauty sleep nih for tomorrow~ pagi-siang kerja, agak sore pacaran,menjelang malem kongkow afterhour with my bffs,karaokean ampe gila, trus rencananya abis itu mau ngajakin si pacar midnight'an xDDD
mantaaaabz!
Dengan rambut yg se oke ini, aku yakin besok akan berjalan baik..Yep! *nodded eagerly with fist punch the sky xDD*

oh! Another thing yang bikin my day so bright today.. Imie-chan, authornya my lovely kim jaejoong put my name on her thanks' note in her new fic, in the name of love chapter 8! Hahaha~
first time being appreciated n recognized gini nih,jadi freaky weirdo! Wahaha..Well, gimana gak seneng, imie gituloh favorit author semua orang di jaeho detox! Gahahaha
gejeh abis gw.

Yasuwlah~

bye2 guys!
I really missed my chatty n online pals huhuhu.. Life without net really sucks the big ball! T.T
well, yeah, at least my hair is so gorgeous now nyahahaha (get whacked)

2008-08-06T01:37:00.000+07:00
Ahh~ i gave out my net connection this past few days~ in order to get more concentrate on things..Plus, i've lost my muse on netting nowadays~

BUT! Hell, i felt more depressed! Haha~ my stoopid lazyness always win me over..Gah!

Dont get what i'm talking about? Well dont bother yourself to get it hehe..
It's just my randomness thought..Out of boredomness x3

aniwaise~
bcause i use my phone to online sometimes, i cant manage to read the shoutbox..So..Yeah, it sucks!
Eventho, it's not like peepz tag me every day, hell i even doubt people read my blog LOL~

okay, better have my beauty sleep now..

Oh before i go.. please,for whoever visit my blog,do ignore the post below this..
I realize it's not healthy to live in hatred, so gah!
That pesimistic thought should be ignored! Nyahahaha~

i love you guys too much to be an antisocial person! Haha!

Yay for me!!

Oh btw, bbrp hr ini gw ngerasa kayak soulless person deh..Wondering around tp pikiran melayang haha~ males bgt dh..

Nyaa~
lupa! Minggu kemaren akhirnya beli buku ALCHEMYST - Nicholas Flamel ; Devil's DNA ; The Devil and miss prym - Paulo Coelho!
Haha~ cant wait to read them soon, ga bs sekarang2 -.-
too much works to do..

Random lg.. I feel so insecure right now, about some things ._. Ah! Stupid woman's hormone!

Okay i'm off.
Too many randomness.

Bye! Woot2!

Selfish needs..

2008-08-02T15:23:00.000+07:00
I don't feel like to socialize..
I don't feel like talking..
I don't feel like meeting friends..
I don't feel like waiting for someone..
I don't feel like smiling..
I don't feel like to be friendly..

I want to be alone. For now.

2008-07-30T17:46:00.002+07:00
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Ku coba untuk melawan hati
Tapi hampa terasa di sini tanpamu
Bagiku semua sangat berarti lagi
Kuingin kau disini
Tepiskan sepiku bersamamu

Tak `kan pernah ada yg lain disisi
Segenap jiwa hanya untukmu
Dan tak `kan mungkin ada yg lain disisi

Ku ingin kau disini tepiskan sepiku bersamamu...

Bagiku semua sangat berarti
Kuingin kau disini
Bagiku semua sangat berarti lagi
Kuingin kau disini

Tak `kan pernah ada yg lain disisi
Segenap jiwa hanya untukmu
Dan tak `kan mungkin ada yg lain disisi

Ku ingin kau disini tepiskan sepiku bersamamu...

Hingga akhir waktu ...

Hingga akhir waktu ...

Hingga akhir waktu ...
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shinta suka banget lagu ini...nyanyi sambil nangis hihi~ my baby~
dan sekarang gw suka banget lagu ini~
hhhh~ another ost for my mood hehe..

for anta : i'll be waiting! ^^